jeff, Hate your pain came back. That shoulder replacement & bone infection damage by not grafting was a total nightmare.
Yeah. That sucked.
You're an inspiration to anyone needing joint replacement. So few realize how much one surgery affects so much more than just where the surgery was done.
Every time they cut me open it takes a little something away, range of motion, certain activities, ability to sleep
Best of luck to you and Pf with the battle of pain. Not for pain, but Cibadol's full spectrum cbd tincture 1800 mg bottle can possibly help with the anxiety.
did you edit this? I seem to remember (possibly incorrectly) it saying something like "it won't make the pain go away but" ... which is the type of thing someone with way too much first hand experience would say (and it is also true, particularly of the high levels of pain that chronic pain has to offer)
One eye-dropper IMHO helps your brain to somewhat chill - but it's not going to make the pain go away.
Derp. There it is. Sorry. I'm a tard.
but apparently a tard with a halfway decent memory
It just somehow helps dealing with the sucky cards dealt when dealing with the insane body repairs. I've tried multiple cbd types and brands - Cibadol has proven to me, by far, being the most consistent help at the best price.
I'll share that what I am really struggling with now, besides pain, is the mental/endurance side of things.
2023 sucked. Broken bones of one form or another all 365 days. Horrendous pain, brutal surgery.
Jan 2 2024 had surgery so since then had been recovery and that facilitated a "positive attitude" because I was "on the track to recovery" or "on the better side of the nightmare"
But now i have done 7 months+ of physical therapy. I am not going to get back more range of motion. What i have now is what I am going to deal with for the rest of my life and I can't reach my head with my right arm, can't shave my bald ass head with right arm, can't reach shelves above shoulder height, blah blah blah. This is it.
And it sucks.
Also I am as "recovered" as I can probably ever expect to be and I am still in pain, a lot of fucking pain, every day pain, wake up numerous times in my sleep every fucking night pain.
Sorry to dump on you. You have listened to me, you have been supportive and I do truly appreciate that. You also may be a member of a very small group of people that may understand what I am talking about. (
@Poirierfan @others) I hope I am wrong about that.
I have to go back to ketamine infusion treatment.
I tried to quit it because it fucking takes me out of commission for 2-3 days and I can't work. But I tried without it and pain seems to have gone up. That is annoying.
Sorry to be a whiny bitch. I should have written this before (im in a decent ass amount of pain right now) but I wanted to give you a proper response.
I am open to trying CBD again. If you dont mind (feel free to ignore this or tell me to fuck off)
what is the exact Product name/dose and what does it cost? Where do you get it?
My worry with CBD, like everything else is that my pain level is simply too high. I can see how it would help people but when I tried it before it just wasn't strong enough for me. My current pain level cuts thru 80mg of oxycontin and 60mg oxycodone daily and the pain cuts thru the ketamine which i think current dose is 450mg plus toradol.
I don't expect to ever be pain free but it would be nice to be able to function like a regular person, to be able to work at least part time and to have a few hours a day where it was possible to focus on something besides the pain.
Short term loss long term gainz fam MBA eggheadz prolly came up wif di plan 
