Keosawa's Powerlifting Log

[Jake Pudenz]

Like I previously stated, I am not supporting you in any other area in your life BUT, a large pizza is something I can always support.

 

[LitteringAnd]

This is me also not giving support.

 

[LitteringAnd]

Hope it was phillly cheese steak pizza.

 

[Discipulus]

Hey, Keo, I hope you feel better. Someone very close to me suffers from depression, and it can be really tough to see how it affects them sometimes. But things always get better in the morning, and every low mood swing always comes back up again. If you need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to hit up a counselor or talk to friends and family. Most people seem to be worried that people will be weirded out and reject them when they find out they have emotional problems, but I've never seen it happen. Good friends always just support you whatever happens.

And I hope you killed that large pizza. Nothing better to improve a mood than some comfort food. Cheers.

Edit: Not being supportive, by the way. Nope, not me.

 

[gbg]

...And I just ordered a large pizza from Domino's. I'd feel guilty, but I've lost five pounds since dropping bread from my diet. I think indulging a little and having a cheat meal might actually be a good idea at this point.

No support...just saying you're not alone. My emotions are a mess, and pizza always helps.

So do big fat hugzzz

 

[CRZA]

Damn. Nice PR. You would probably get it without straps with some good knurling and shit loads of chalk, right?

No support, but eating a pizza and watching a movie always cheers me up, as long as you dont watch anything depressing though.

 

[miaou]

Congrats for the PR.

Ι also have had issues with depression (dealt with a depressive incident when I was 24 and have had occasional depressive tendencies since). It can be tough but it's something you can manage. Like Jake said, it's good to keep doing things you love that keep you motivated.

Fuck no support.

 

[CRZA]

haha, I typed in support cat on google, fun stuff

 

[belph]

...And I just ordered a large pizza from Domino's. I'd feel guilty, but I've lost five pounds since dropping bread from my diet. I think indulging a little and having a cheat meal might actually be a good idea at this point.

Feel better sir, I believe Pizza is always the logical starting point.

 

[LegioTitan]

Aren't I an insensitive dick. I just saw the DL Pr. Didn't notice any of the other stuff.

Obviously you don't want sympathy or to seem like a weak little bitch but speaking as a heavy drinker with a history of depression issues in the Navy, got your back bro.

 

[dinpappa]

I think your decicion to get a large pizza is the right thing to do, also that makes me feel better about the fact that i just did the same, since i know im not expecting anyone today so i can just eat it wearing shorts and a wife beater. Love me some stay at home saturdays!

Grats with the PR!, and im not going to feel sorry for you, but know that I know what you feel like broster

 

[Keosawa]

Thank you all. I slept in today and am already feeling better. I've been having some really weird mood swings over the last year or so, but I'm thinking today will be a better day.

And yes, the pizza helped, lol. I figure I needed to curb my weight loss anyway, so it probably wasn't a bad idea.

As far as the 560 pull goes, I don't like to make excuses, but I had a few things working against my grip. My right forearm was pretty sore from dumbbell rows yesterday (holding those dumbbells has always been harder for me than actually doing the rows), so I knew my grip could be a problem. The bars at our gym now don't have much knurling left, and a lot of them are bent; this one rolled on me as I pulled it off the floor, and that made holding it really difficult.

I think that, with a real deadlift bar and some rest, I should be good for 562 in April. I'm going to try for a 445 squat next week, and if I can hit that, I'll feel good about taking 446 as a second attempt in the squat. If I can squat 446 and deadlift 562 on my second attempts--and especially if I can manage to hit a third attempt on either of these lifts for slightly more--then I feel good about my chances at 1300. I think that when it comes time, as long as my strength is there, I will not fail.

 

[Keosawa]

Also, I might make a bench press video today. My bench press is still lousy, but my wide grip is getting better every week. I haven't done a max-effort bench video in a long time, so I might try to make one now.

 

[Keosawa]

Bench Press
Barx5 (wide)
Barx5 (close)
135x10 (wide)
135x5 (close)
185x5 (wide)
185x2 (close)
215x3 (close)
235x3 (wide)
235x3 (close)
255x3 (wide)
250x3 (close)
270x3 (wide)

Two-Board Press w/ reverse mini-bands (40 lbs. at bottom)
135x3
225x3
275x3
295x3
295x3
295x4
315x2

Cable Tricep Pulldowns, five sets

I was happy with 270 for a triple with my wide grip. I'm still not close to where I was when I benched 315, but it's getting closer every week. I felt pretty good today, and I apologize for not having a video--I wanted to take one, but the gym was just too crowded. Next week, I'll get an idea of where my touch-and-go present-day max is with a wide grip--I'm guessing 285-290.

 

[WitchCraft]

Have you considered that the abrupt change in diet is affecting your mood?

 

[Keosawa]

Have you considered that the abrupt change in diet is affecting your mood?

I've been like this for the last year, at least. It's a product of being burnt out by school; I don't know where my life is headed anymore, so that's difficult, and now that I'm not spending long days trying to build a career for myself, I have lots of free time to fret over whatever else is going on in my life. When I was busy, I didn't have time to think about whether or not I found my life fulfilling. The diet could be contributing, but it's not the source. My emotions will level out once I find some direction again.

 

[WitchCraft]

I've been like this for the last year, at least. It's a product of being burnt out by school; I don't know where my life is headed anymore, so that's difficult, and now that I'm not spending long days trying to build a career for myself, I have lots of free time to fret over whatever else is going on in my life. When I was busy, I didn't have time to think about whether or not I found my life fulfilling. The diet could be contributing, but it's not the source. My emotions will level out once I find some direction again.

Ah, I didn't realize it was long term. That's unfortunate mang.

I obviously don't know you personally, but from my e-perspective of you, you seem pretty successful.

 

[Keosawa]

Ah, I didn't realize it was long term. That's unfortunate mang.

I obviously don't know you personally, but from my e-perspective of you, you seem pretty successful.

Success =/= happiness.

DE Deadlift, w/ green bands (100+ lbs. tension at top)
135x3
135x3
135x3
225x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2
275x2

DE Box Squat, w/ mini-bands and 50 lbs. chains (deloaded almost entirely at bottom)
Barx3
135x3
135x3
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2
225x2

Saxon Side Bends
30x15
30x15
30x15
30x15
30x15

GHRs
BWx30
BWx30
BWx30
BWx30

Deadlifts were done conventional style today. These felt good and fast; I haven't lost much if any speed off of my pull since dropping conventional speed pulls.

 

[Keosawa]

Dumbbell Press
50x10
70x10
80x10
80x10
80x7

One-armed overhead press w/ barbell wedged into corner
90x10, 10
115x5, 5
115x5, 5
115x5, 5
90x10, 10

Dumbbell External Rotations
10x12, 12
10x12, 12
10x12, 12

Pull-ups
BWx12
BWx12
BWx12

Today's extra workout session lasted 40 minutes. I really need to dumbbell press more--I tried these the normal way for the first time in years (usually I do them with sort of a close neutral grip and pause at the bottom), and I sucked at them.

 

[Keosawa]

I had a fit of inspiration today. I could use a project in my life right now, and so I'm going to make a film. It's going to document the two months and change that I spend preparing for my April meet. I'm calling it a meditation because I don't think it's going to be so much a training film as it will be an attempt to document how I feel about powerlifting and what I put into the sport. There will be a lot of training footage, but I'm thinking I'll shoot all of it myself, unless I have an offer for collaboration (and if we share the same vision for the project).

I'm just going to start shooting and storing footage immediately. Even though I've been in film studies for years and have been around filmmakers for ages, I've never made a film, let alone something that could end up being feature-length.

So, I don't know what will come out of this, but I think I'm pretty set on pursuing it. It might end up being therapeutic for me.