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I'm sorry brother, for whatever reason it seems like the strongest people suffer the most in their life. Don't do anything she wouldn't want you to do.
She's gone. She passed away in her sleep for no apparent reason in the wee hours of the morning & I'm in total shock. I'm completely & utterly devastated. And I hurt so bad that it's even painful to breathe. Fuck, I don't even want to draw my next breath without her.
I'm posting here as a means to vent & to reach out because I'm totally alone here in Arizona. I've reached out to family, of course, but I still haven't notified her friends via phone or Facebook yet because I just can't face crying anymore. But I still need to distract myself from the emptiness & silence of this house. So, I've got the television on loud & I'm composing this as my heart lies shattered in my chest.
God, I loved her so much, guys. I mean, I think it was pretty obvious by how much I mentioned her & posted about her here. But you'd have to multiply that many times over to grasp how much I really loved her. And now, she's gone.
I won't know what happened to her until sometime Monday. Right now, I haven't got a clue. She was so young & so fit other than a couple of lingering issues from her tough battle with COVID last summer. She still experienced bouts of fatigue & she occasionally got a rattle in her lungs that she never dealt with before COVID. But other than that her doctor said she was in excellent health. None of this makes sense.
As I sit here alone all I can think of is how much I wish I had held her & told her I loved her even more often than I did. So, please, everyone. Take advantage of every moment that you can with your loved ones & be sure that you let them know how much you love them because time can be so damned short.
Rest in peace, my beloved wife, Jana. You were my life, baby & I don't want to go on without you.
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spot onI saw the original post almost right away and just haven't had anything to say other than being mostly dumbstruck.
One of the things that came to mind as a possibility was close to what you just said. There isn't anyone around here I would want to experience this...but if someone told me to name someone I would specifically not want to have to experience this particular tragedy, one of the very first names that comes to mind is @sweetviolenturg.
punch to the gut is right, I still cant believe this.It felt like a punch to the gut. I always enjoyed hearing him post about his life. Was good to hear about things going well for such a genuine and kind-hearted person. Sort of inspiring in a way. Makes you think you might be able to find happiness like that for yourself some day.
I'm really at a loss right now. This is the saddest news I've heard here since lilomma passed. It's good to see the community coming together to support our friend in such a rough time though.
I can honestly say this was the most shocking post I've read on Sherdog.