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I lost my wife yesterday.

Again, thank you, everyone. If I neglected to like your post or I didn't respond to your question, forgive me. I'm just a little overwhelmed by the number of responses & although I'd love to reply to each of you individually, I don't think I have the energy for it at the moment. So, please accept this shout-out to all of you as my sincere thank you.

I'm a mess at the moment because I've got the fights on just to drown out the silence but I'm wracked with guilt & sadness over it because it was something that we did together every weekend & doing it without her seems so empty & pointless. But I'm avoiding music at all costs because it would just kill me if I heard any of her favorite songs right now.

As for Sedona, I think it's forever ruined for me. Without her here I just don't think I can stand it. But it's way too soon to make any real plans. Though being here alone totally sucks.
 
Holy shit, this actually stunned me when I saw the thread title and who the OP was. I feel like she's been a routine inclusion in your posts for a while now.

I'm so sorry this happened.
 
sweetviolenturg said:
She's gone. She passed away in her sleep for no apparent reason in the wee hours of the morning & I'm in total shock. I'm completely & utterly devastated. And I hurt so bad that it's even painful to breathe. Fuck, I don't even want to draw my next breath without her.

I'm posting here as a means to vent & to reach out because I'm totally alone here in Arizona. I've reached out to family, of course, but I still haven't notified her friends via phone or Facebook yet because I just can't face crying anymore. But I still need to distract myself from the emptiness & silence of this house. So, I've got the television on loud & I'm composing this as my heart lies shattered in my chest.

God, I loved her so much, guys. I mean, I think it was pretty obvious by how much I mentioned her & posted about her here. But you'd have to multiply that many times over to grasp how much I really loved her. And now, she's gone.

I won't know what happened to her until sometime Monday. Right now, I haven't got a clue. She was so young & so fit other than a couple of lingering issues from her tough battle with COVID last summer. She still experienced bouts of fatigue & she occasionally got a rattle in her lungs that she never dealt with before COVID. But other than that her doctor said she was in excellent health. None of this makes sense.

As I sit here alone all I can think of is how much I wish I had held her & told her I loved her even more often than I did. So, please, everyone. Take advantage of every moment that you can with your loved ones & be sure that you let them know how much you love them because time can be so damned short.

Rest in peace, my beloved wife, Jana. You were my life, baby & I don't want to go on without you.

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Holy fuck man, I'm so sorry.
You're a stand up guy.
How are you right now?
 
I dont know what to say. Thanks for being so open with your life. I hope you continue to do so, youre a standup guy and Jana wouldnt have chosen anything less. The sherpeople are here for you. Wish you strength on your path to peace...
 
Strychnine said:
Lord have mercy... I'm shocked, legit shocked.

You always wrote about how much you two meant to each other and you always made these pages a bit brighter with every post. I'm so, so, sorry for your loss...

You are in my prayers and never forget that you have us Sherbros.
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I can honestly say this was the most shocking post I've read on Sherdog.
 
It's been clear over the years that you're not just an amazing person, but were an amazing husband as well. I really hate that we can't do more to help you, but if you ever need to vent about anything my PMs are always open.
 
Damn my dude. You have always been a poster that I saw eye to eye on when we would post about marriages and what it takes to be successful in it.

I am so very sorry for your loss, and I hope you will be able to recover from this shocking loss of your wife.
 
Jesus christ dude, fuck. Sorry for your loss... Try to find something positive, remember life instead of mourning death...
 
My God, that is a nightmare.

There are no words... stay as strong as you can and try to be around people who care about you as much as you can.
 
Just logged on now and scanned the Mayberry. Upon reading the title of your thread I thought to myself... "Here we go, another bait and switch title from a Mayberry joker who actually got separated from his wife while shopping in Walmart". Then I read the opening post. All I can say is my heart goes out to you SVT in regards this terrible tragedy.
 
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