Has age changed you? ?

[Oliver Clothesoff]

I care more about Politics than I used to.

 

[CrimsonFan]

This, and also in recent year or so my perception of time has started to cause me periodic panic attacks, I guess it's what people refer to as midlife crisis? Like when you realize certain events have taken place more than 20 years ago but that notion does not gel with how your brain experiences them?

My body's beat up too, part of it age, part of it gym mileage, I jumped out of the bed yesterday when I realized I was a minute late for my 8am conference call, and that's a fucking big-ass no-no nowadays, my back was stiff for the next 6 hours.

One of the biggest changes is patience, as in I no longer have it. For people, for stupid or pointless activities (and it goes back to the whole time perception issue, my brain refuses to allow stupid shit to occupy my time for long). It's mostly a good thing as it weeds out a lot of garbage out of my life, but it can be a problem too because sometimes it manifests with people I care about (when they're just not thinking fast enough or far ahead enough as I expect them to) as well as because life keeps throwing stupid shit your way (mowing the lawn is an atrocious waste of time in any kind of overall scheme of things but still ain't gonna do itself).

There's a base level of anxiety I can't suppress which prevents me from fully enjoying things I used to. I can't seem to "empty" my mind, for lack of a better term, in order to, say, enjoy a gaming session without having some bullshit concern in the back of my fucking head. Like, I can't sit and play a game without some part of my fucking brain thinking about how laundry needs to be done or how I need to patch a crack on the ceiling that my wife mentioned. Shit like that.

It's not all bad and, definitely, not all good. It just is

im far from a saint and shouldnt give advise to anyone

but im gonna do it anyway :. Sounds to me like you think you are smarter than other people and that is bad characteristic to have. Also mowing the lawn is fun, do it

 

[IanMoone]

true, age doesn't make me want to get close to large crowds.

nothing to do with covid for me tho.

 

[aerius]

Apparently, I'm becoming more like my dad. Back when I was a kid, pretty much all of our family friends said I was lot more like my mom than my dad. Now that I'm older and have a family of my own, most of them think I'm a lot like my dad.

 

[4daLuLZ]

Definitely get into fights a whole lot less. A whooooole lot less.
Less temper.
Care less about what people think of me. A whoooole lot less.
Care more about life and me.
Extremely confident about me and who I am.
Knowing what I want and what I am and breaking my balls for nobody.
Care less about that "bros before anything" BS.
More careful about breaking the law.
You can’t guilt trip or embarrass me into doing jack shit.
Enjoying the smaller things about life more.
Care more about family ...........though still a very small circle of them.
Knowing I’m the bomb !



Things that haven’t changed :

Procrastination
Love for Video Games
Horned out 24/7

 

[Darth_Inv1ctu5]

im far from a saint and shouldnt give advise to anyone

but im gonna do it anyway :. Sounds to me like you think you are smarter than other people and that is bad characteristic to have. Also mowing the lawn is fun, do it

We'll have to agree to disagree on both counts. Mowing the lawn is the stupidest human activity ever invented, and, as far as the notion of being smarter than others is concerned, I don't think that I am smarter than everyone at all, there's nothing you could have derived that from. And even if I did - which I don't - there would be nothing wrong with that. Every distribution has tails, noting that you are part of a tail doesn't by itself carry negative moral value.

It sounds like in most of what your saying is not that age changed you, but the pandemic changed your behavior.

Would you be doing those changes if the pandemic wasn't there?

Every generation forgets what they were like growing up and thinks the current crop of youth is THE WORST EVER lol. In 20 years time, the Fortnite-playing, mumble-rapping, Tidepod-eating zoomers of today will be complaining about the unruliness of the next batch of kids.

I think what's lost in this train of thought is the fact that people objectively may be getting worse. Is that certain? No. Possible? Surely. What does "objectively worse" mean? I don't know. What does "know" mean? I don't.