Let's try something olive-branch-y. I'll give you a sincere backhanded compliment,
@Lead. Lacking integrity when dealing with an emotionally-challenging intellectual superior on a karate forum is not the worst sin in the world. You're above average intelligence and you reach beyond your level, trying to be better-informed and more objective than you currently are, and that's an ongoing thing. You care about knowledge and what the truth is, and you want to know more and be closer to the truth. You're also in at least the 75th percentile of the population in being open to being proven wrong.
When you're not dealing with something that gets your goat, you clearly try to maintain that objectivity, and you succeed reasonably frequently. I've seen some improvement in your "both sideism" over the last couple years, though not as much as one would hope. And despite the fact that you have a dormant lung disease waiting to ravage you to your early demise, your remaining years will have you just on the verge of contentedness; not too discontent, but also not ready to settle for anything yet. You're an average forum moderator, and an above average karate forum moderator, though that is kind of an indictment when you think about it.
Now, like a conscientious BJJ black belt, I've given you something to work with, and you can take the opening or not. I'm not gonna twist you up into a pretzel and shit.