Yeah honestly I have some conspiratorial thoughts about desensitizing people to violence and creating apathy in the population or people who used it to get young people into 4chan style fascism.
Seems insane but if you know about the history of the Internet , MKultra and so on and so on I dont think its that cooky lol.
Either way its definitely toxic as fuck and I hope you can move past that kind of nihilistic voyeurist look at violence and perverse sexuality.
I feel you though I go down so many rabbit holes I'm half insane