How ya been feeling? My surgery is on Halloween. I'm having second thoughts.
Just played my first gig since Thanksgiving 2022.
Went pretty well.
Keys and harmonica.
But barely played keys with my right arm at all.
Right arm may have re-broke.. either that or it just healed so fucked up from the break during the last surgeries that xrays lead to the diagnosis of fractured humerus.
So I may essentially have a permanently broken arm. Because I sure as fuck don't want to sign up for another major open surgery for them to re break it and put plates and screws in and shit like ....and go on antibiotics for the rest of my life.
Fuck that
I'm seeing the pain Dr who does my ketamine treatment about a "peripheral nerve stimulator" which is an electric implant that is supposed to disrupt the pain signal.
Fuck it. What do i have to lose at this point?
Pain is bad. I'm drinking every day to cover the pain that cuts thru the meds.
Not much. Like 2-3 shots of bourbon.
Playing a LOT of harmonica.
Learning a lot of saxophone, string, keyboard/synth parts on harmonica for the band(s*) im playing with is really forcing me to step my harmonica skills up to a higher level.
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Seconds thoughts eh...?
I have been there. And I have even last minute canceled surgery. Not sure it was a great idea, in my case.. but let's just say I get it.
For me I wasn't in the right frame of mind.
Cost me a few months though. Which sucked.