dude, I am wounded, but can't go away, move me off

[runjay]

Least you ain’t a stealers fan!



amirite

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

I dally. How many times have I said this place has saved my life. I get the concern, it's not like I'm not concerned. I've always been a madman, I've always had what I consider they talk about with a death wish, I've never had a lot of concern for myself, I insert myself in dramatic situations on the spot with no hesitation. I was never molested, I've spent a lifetime trying to rectify that, the night is young. I'm not "bi-polar", the labels make you want to puke. It was at least a little bit sexy when it was manic depression, I've been what I can imagine as maniacal, ...that being in a closet with belts around my knuckles because there's a knock on the door and I want to punch a hole through the sky, and been so sad when they pass the bottle, the bottle doesn't come back. For all the stupid and crazy shit I post here, it's never been the tip of the iceberg. I was this way as a kid, I was this way before here, during here, girlfriends,marriage, kids,friends. I'm not something as easy as a mental dart, or something you look up, maybe I am, but not to me.

In all my bad days, and the dumb shit, and there's been so much dumbshit that it's hard to believe. ...I was sitting on the couch one evening watching a specific Lon Chaney movie for the third or fourth or fifth time in a fow, popcorn Pop corn, ...Pasta, potable, and the wife says out of the blue, all these years, and i never know what you're thinking. I understand, but i don't understand at all. Everything in life is for the vibe, you are the vibe. What's going on in the head, I don't cram down anybody, I don't understand it, I don't get why I'm a Shakespeare guy, I'm a dumb lumberjack. I don't understand. I'm not a Pagliacci, I'm not a sad case, I'm not making up for anything, I'm not looking for anything, I don't believe in God or Kierkegaard or Pascal. ...I believe a bit in NIetzsche, but mostly the wirework.

I think,I'm here, i've been called a lot of untrue shit by great people. Rustin Cole (-ish I guess the pessimism, though more likely looks, no?), Rick Grimes, by a certain someone. Hopefully the tv version, the comics aren't so fleshed out. ....I got a phonecall one day from my daughter, there's this show you have to watch, this guy reminds me exactly of you. ...I don't wanna see this guy. Anyway, you've kept me home, I gott a move here shortly. If there's something wrong with me, which there may be, my mechanism stays with me. I try to be a positive force, despite what you don't see. She saw it all, Bogie and BaCall, just because you don't see the wheels, don't you feel you know me all the way? I was born to die saving kids from a burning building, I was born to show in a moment, it's just been drug out. I'm a guy in the woods of Montana, I got a call from my little brother, go check this place out, they will love you, i promise.

You've saved my life a million times, I have capacities for grandiose avenues, but 8 out of ten times, I come here.

The clocks ticking. see you in a bit.

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

all my friends are Steelers fans

Least you ain’t a stealers fan!



amirite

In the end, or the day, do you think about what I'm thinking about, cause that sucks balls. I'm not looking for the next quip,one of the joys of my life, I swear to God, maybe why she said it. Life couldn't possible more beautiful, I took a piss in the bathroom, as a fully grown man, and looked in the mirror as the third grader, "How did we fucking do this, Ahahaha Hahahaha!" adjust the shit and go back out to the table like a man. You don't know. I get I'm kind of funny and have some angles, but for 17 years I got paid a living wage to look out you didn't post porn, and got to invite all my friends. If I'm found in a ditch one day, I hope you don't remember the ditch.

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

 

[MigitAs]

Pissed yourself mr lahey

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

you know when they have cats in the hospital and the cat goes in and the whole unit follows because the cat's been on tv and pretty accurate. ....I' feel like the cat, it's a lot of pressure to smell stink enough lay down and point it out: this fucker needs to go. It's not about divine cave shit, this one stinks, let's open up a cot. I'm allergic, but maybe they'll have s hospice crow in the future.

 

[AL-Tappo McSnappo]

somewhere and let talk as friends, listen to music.

This will help you

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

Have not pissed myself, Joanie Daughterty. I do need reading glasses, you aren't wrong yet.

 

[Sweater of AV]

 

[KID Yamamoto]

This will help you

Lmao

 

[IDGETKTFO]

Besides drunken rants, what do you actually do for this forum TS? Serious Q.

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

3 hours is more than i have. I promise you, I won't disregard, almost every word he's saying, I'm saying back. This is pretty beautiful. As I said, I've meant as much as you can mean anything, not to be a prophet, and I already love this man and will listen. I chose, not to to teach, not lay out what I know as fact, in my heart. I chose, I chose to show you what I mean. When I die, all the words and religion I have are exactly what he's saying. And I will tell you right now, pm me this please. I'm not there. And someone shut that kid up. Thank you for this, I will listen, I swear to you.

And a beautiful voice. ...There's nothing new but the voice.




well, youtube O Captain My Captain, dead poets

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

alright, to be a one-trick pony,would suck, Al Tappo,thanks bud

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

 

[Drunken Meat Fist]

When I'm in the dirt there will be no religion around me, and despite best efforts and what I bring in, I'm not here to be saved. I was in third grade and knew the dirty shit of this world, I'm an older guy now but I'm the same guy I was in third grade. I don't believe in a god, and I think Kierkegaard could probably use a show.

I was put on this earth, and I try to bring everything I have in a positive way, if there's a God, or many, I would like think they saw what I did and what I do in the context of what's capable in my daily heart without being a bitch. I get out out bed, and build a lifetime of small but immediate connection. i had an old woman call me on accident one day, and she called me back and said, you're the nicest person I've talked to in a long time. How do you spell Je ne se quoi, ...the Bible, all the texts, are fucking books, words on paper, everyone bows and kneels and hands it out. You can read your life away, but are you really the words. The big books are not complicated, be a good man, not in your heart but what other people will say. I'm a fuck up, but I've read all the books, and decided.a simple thing,I'd like to be one of those rare people,that if you bump into me in real life, there is no difference. I was reading a book on a very cold day on a bench, it was cold, it was cold, and this girl comes up to me and says what are you doing? My friend in the book store broke his leg, I was told by the girl who's gonna open his store, I have his Christmas card, we've done this forever, where else would you put me.

 

[CatchnShoot]

I'm still here, it's cold out, I'm watching a recorded football game I don't care about. I think I was in 3rd grade when I realized the Fonz has to be a Packers fan. The Packers play the Fish tomorrow. I've been a fan my whole life, it's just always been there. The old man wasn't around, there were no Packer's fans in 500 miles, Seahawks, Broncos, as far back as you go back in the photo albums, I'm Green Bay Packers, I have an origin story for my first Steve Martin record, and my first KISS album, I was a Packers fan then. I played baseball, won league and tournament every year, all star first base, ...a Packers fan. ....

 

[Pizza Werewolf]

 

[MrCoffee]

 

[MrCoffee]