I think I generally "made" it out of the cheat day danger zone - this week balances out as maintenance overall. However, I ate 2 cups of ice cream on top of dinner last night plus 3 apples. It is incredibly annoying how much self-sabotage I inflict with cheating/binging.
I am trying to think positive, however, been feeling quite sensitive and a bit anxious last 3-4 days. It feels like all the skeletons from my closet are having a party in my head now.
But then again, weight loss is not easy or linear, most overweight people would face depression along the way at least once, and I am pretty sure I have it easy compared to some.
On the positive note, I only need to shed fat, have more than enough muscle on me. I am as healthy as a wild boar haha. I have plenty of free time. And I only have 15-20 pounds to go, which are the hardest of course. I also got lucky to have pretty slim waist for a big guy, so when I am lean I look quite aesthetic. Speaking of which, my huge chest muscles kind of annoy me.......... every girl I dated always reminded me how she is jealous I have bigger boobs than her hahaahah. Gotta admit, that is kind of funny.
Well...whatever, writing this post kind of hyped me up to persevere. 2 objectives I need to accomplish - lose weight, and (after new year) find a job. Time to work - off to the gym to do some cycling.