Eh, long story.
When I was a teenager I was the life of the party. I had more friends than anyone I knew. Everyone wanted to be around me because I was funny and silly. I would party and I was very social.
During that time, likely due to some negative experiences I had, I started to change. I became less and less social over time. There were multiple factors.
The more time you spend alone, the more you become accustomed to it, and the less you want to be around others. These days I don't really have any friends. I would call that my choice. Ive had opportunities to make friends, but because Im embarrassed of myself, I don't allow anyone to get to know me. If you get to know me, you might see that I have problems. I spend most of my time putting on a completely fake personality thats meant to portray me as happy and normal, and im very good at it.
Ive completely lost all of my social skills, because I have nothing interesting to talk about, because I never do anything. I cant hold a 2 minute conversation and I find I don't really put effort in to it because I don't want to talk to people.
Its not necessarily that I find people annoying. There are people I don't find annoying, they are just too different than me. I cant relate to anything they say. I find I don't care about anything they say. Ive just grown distant, even to my own family.
I do what I want to do at all times, and I don't want others getting in my way.
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