Social WR Lounge v261: Opium-Free Heroin, for those trying to quit but still wanna shoot up!

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Sycho Sid said:
No cavity since I was a kid, I am 33, so no baby teeth (that would be fucking terrifying), I have none of those things so I decide what to watch at all times.
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I still have two baby teeth.
 
Deorum said:
Err @Sara? And how do you not know @fingercuffs? Smh. When you were temp banned during the WR Awards thread in December - we were dethroned as co-POTY by @tonni - there was talk of @IngaVovchanchyn being transgender. :eek: Mr. Man What An Ass, I Ride My Bike Fast wanted confirmation that wasn't the case before he penned his Sherotica classic.


I admittedly laughed (out loud). I'm sorry. :(



Where are they buried? :confused:



It's more like a couple dozen or something like that but there was no "before"; dudes came first and they were concurrent to the flings with women. I'm going on six years being vayjay-free though.



I've actually grown to find it kind of flattering that we summon acts of supernatural reckoning and trigger the collapse of entire civilizations. You know like, fuck your couch; fuck "your culture" (
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?!?); fuck your civilization.



It's a cute idea and all, but "gay marriage" really isn't something I believe in (I support it for others) and there would be almost no family present on either side considering I'm largely estranged at this point and he was just outright cutoff and practically kicked to the curb as a teenager.



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To be fair, I've never heard of him either.
 
AgonyandIrony said:
Man, I'm having an odd day. I took the day off, couldn't sleep a wink last night. I've been struggling mightily with sleep and all those 12 hour a day shifts back to back to back and my days off I do absolutely nothing.

Homie called me and had clearly been crying, his two girlfriends he lives with, there seems to be some trouble in paradise and they needed money. I'm not good at comforting people at all, I dwell in the beauty of what most find negative, but it was a good hang, I got a PC and I'm back. Click clacking away with a lovely sad tune in my ear.

Does anyone else find when something trivial is missing from their life that they kind of shut down? I assume not, the majority of y'all are far more put together than I. I'm envious and it seems so alien how so many of y'all are good normal people, it's nice to read. To imagine of life of doing things normally and not just out of necessity. To wake up, make breakfast, check your emails, get in the truck you're making payments on, answering your families phone calls, going to work and just working, going home with a dinner planned, a tv show in mind, one beer and not a pint of whiskey, laundry when it needs done, bills paid when due, healthy friendships. So peculiar from the outside when you struggle to sleep and you struggle to wake up. I'm curious of what that means.

Granted, I doubt any of y'all could thrive in this neighborhood, with murderous hookers and Chewbacca's around every corner... but the grass is always greener I suppose. When you spend your life stumbling the path less paved feels like home.

I talk to a psychiatrist Thursday if I can wake up for it, I'm excited. I've never really been on any sort of medication that wasn't prescribed by a homie. I don't know what it does. The one thing I'm most curious to know about myself is about why I enjoy cocaine when I do it. I always want to do something when I touch that China, start something, write something, be something. Feel something. Liquor too, those two things (and bless them when they're combined) I could write you a periodic table of the elements of self destruction. I would very much like to be normal. To make my bed and waffles in the morning, to call my family and check on them every day, to do things again. I worry a bit that it's over for me in a way, not that I'm suicidal or anything, just at this point I don't think I can go back to going places, or making plans, or applying to a class, or doing anything that's not what's in front of me, my pages will remain unfinished, and I'll spend every day in a form of alcohol induced stasis. My favorite bird is the crow, which is ironic, at 32 crows have been sinking their feet into the sides of my eyes and underneath those eyes I'm starting to carry more bags than Floyd Mayweather's entourage. I'm not suicidal anymore, and that slightly worries me, as I'm not happier or normal. when I used to put a gun in my mouth, that took courage, and there was a brutal release when I couldn't pull the trigger. I worry that perhaps deep down I didn't need a gun to kill myself, and that all of our caskets lower day by day, and I'm riding to my funeral on a white horse with a blunt and a bottle. To watch Evan Williams, John Jameson, Well Tequila, Self Doubt, Childhood Trauma, and Inaction be the six pallbearers carrying the cheapest casket my meager Estate Sale offered.

I realize how very obnoxious I am on this forum and how horrid it must be to drag through my long ass dumb posts, but this is truly the only place I can open up. When I usually open up to anyone, the way I've opened up to y'all for over a decade, I immediately ghost. I really hope I can afford therapy and medication. I'm tired of aging at a bus stop with ever changing faces, until that black bus rides up to take me to the eternal beyond, often early and for my grandfather cruelly late, but rain or shine, it seems like all I do is check my watch and talk about the weather.

I'm curious what y'all think of this song. I was taken aback when I first hard it, his voice so haunted. The acoustic with a touch of static and the way the violin just seeps into the song so effortlessly you barely even know it and the way it swells with his voice and pulls back and the song ends with just the acoustic guitar, the same way it starts. Gorgeous. Folk really has grown ever so much into something so beautiful.

The distance from the man that I am to the man I want to be
The time it takes to realize time is the distance I need
But I was born impatient
And I was born unkind
But I refuse to believe I have to be
The same person I was born when I die
'Cause change is alright
Change is alright
I'm not proud of all the choices I've made for a lot of my life
Following the shadow when I damn well know that behind me is the light
But I've lied to my mother
I made people feel like hell
But I refuse to believe I have to keep
Being cruel 'cause I'm a coward myself
And time is impatience
No, patience takes time
Excuses will only do good if you're waiting around to die
Everyone is born with self worth
How easily it turns to doubt
It takes letting go of what we know we can't live without
But the blood in the water
Is the blood of my brother
We both learned it didn't mean a thing in
The end if one was thicker than the other
And I've tried having faith
But I'll rot like a dog
'Cause I've always been scared of loving
Someone just a little bit more than I'm loved
Losing is fine
Everything is fine

I do ever so apologize for these posts.
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A “regular” boring life is nice but I get envious of all the wild stories you’ve told about living in the FQ and working at a strip club. It sounds like you live life more than most people do/did. Plus being 32 is nothing especially for a guy.
Pay the therapist in cash and it should cost half. And antidepressants are only $4 a month even without insurance.
I bet you’d feel so much better though just getting on a consistent sleep schedule.
 
Deorum said:
Err @Sara


Where are they buried? :confused:



It's more like a couple dozen or something like that but there was no "before"; dudes came first and they were concurrent to the flings with women. I'm going on six years being vayjay-free though.
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The average American man has 6.1 sexual partners in his lifetime. This is exactly what I was saying.
 
Denter said:
The average American man has 6.1 sexual partners in his lifetime. This is exactly what I was saying.
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The "hypersexual" thing? It's actually come up a couple different times with @Khabib Khanate. I've never denied being a little beast (and from a really young age), I just don't think it makes me a bad person or that I should be punished for it. I'm not even going to disclose my (male) body count because it isn't something to brag about even in the gay community. It's just 'normal' whatever.
 
Deorum said:
The "hypersexual" thing? It's actually come up a couple different times with @Khabib Khanate. I've never denied being a little beast (and from a really young age), I just don't think it makes me a bad person or that I should be punished for it. I'm not even going to disclose my (male) body count because it isn't something to brag about even in the gay community. It's just 'normal' whatever.
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The whole concept of shaming folks over body count in general is stupid unless you're having real risky sex. I've just never understood it.
 
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