It's weird how some things can upset me while others have hardly any impact at all.
I watched the two close up videos of Kirk being shot, shortly after it happened. I saw the arterial spray from his neck, and knew he was dead even before it was confirmed. I didn't enjoy watching the videos, nor did I celebrate his murder. I felt sorry for him, but beyond that I had no real emotional reaction.
A couple of days ago, I watched a video on YouTube about the murder. It ended with Kirk's three year old daughter running up shouting, "Daddy!" and hugging him.
That one hit me right in The Feels. The knowledge that bairn will never again be able to hug her father or hear his voice.