We are here for you brother, hope you feel better and get help.
Yeah this week has been rough.
Getting through my days barely - just lots of rumination and overwhelming emptiness.
Have stayed with my parents for the week - just having trouble being alone at night.
Going back to my place tonight after work - see how I can handle being alone. If weather permits I'll be going to train BJJ tomorrow at an old Friends academy out of the city (small town just outside of the city).
Been a week or so of lots of deep breathing, light workouts (over exertion sometimes triggers Panic Attacks), eating properly, having time with my parents.
Will start a personal journal again, keep up with the meditation and deep breathing, attempt to start socializing and reconnecting with people (gonna be hard), CBD, some CBT, and go back to training BJJ and kickboxing on a regular basis.
Stay away from certain places that have bad memories.
A week ago I was contemplating suicide; I'm glad I'm here to write this - though I cannot lie it is tough to get through days and it sucks being the one who is left behind and feeling useless (relationship that just died as it got started for reasons I have idea).
I booked two flights to Toronto - on in April and the other in August for two concerts I wanna see. Also, going to buy some tickets to some local shows. Basically treating myself and doing things I used love doing. Hoping to be able to plan a vacation in July to Thailand to go train.
My boyfriend is depressed. It's very difficult to build relationships with him. He doesn't want to talk, doesn't go to work and doesn't want to do anything. I know that depression is a serious psychological illness, but I don't understand why he doesn't want to start treatment. He doesn't go to therapy, doesn't take pills that his doctor prescribed for him. I read on the Internet information
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From someone who has gone through depression - most of my life and my personal experiece - you can beg and plead for him to get help but unless he is willing to take initiative and take steps to better himself and tackle this issue - your spinning your wheels.
If he is unwilling to do anything you might have to break it off as it is not fair to you and you do need to practice self-care. It's not a threat you're going to make it's a self preservation and anyone who has had to deal with depression knows how it affects the ones you love.
