I hate grappeling, i havent done a round of BJJ or ground work ever. My eyes were always on bare knuckle, now the fight is much more simple. Every single fight i was paralized by fear of takedowns. This is what daddy wants
How so ? Your last fight was kickboxing, not takedowns involved. It was a non factor.
I think you haven't trained with a team during all that time right ? Despite telling us you would. Correct me if I'm wrong.
I mean it's your life, do whatever you wish, I'm just giving advices based on the data you're sharing with us.
You fought MMA didn't go well, went to kickboxing didn't go well, now it's bareknuckle. Seems like you're hoping from one train to another in hope to find some magic in one of them.
If you hate grappling it's fine. But if you want to test your striking there are healthier ways to do this.
First get yourself set on one sport. In your case I'd say muay thai or kickboxing cause your only experience seems to be in there. Then get into a serious muay Thai gym. Train a few months. And then do some local tournaments with guys from your age, muay Thai in the US has a veteran division right ? In Europe we also have C class, B class and A class, and you slowly climb up, do you have that ?
You should fight amateur and local. And only if your coaches are giving you the green light. You have no business fighting at the pro level. People are only exploiting you there.
You will get much fairer fights, much longer fights, with way more back and forth and on an even ground skill wise.
That's what I did when I boxed, before my life changing injuries. I only fought in smokers, club vs club local tournament, and my end goal was to fight amateur at the regional level, once my coaches were ok with it.
I had no goal to fight in the amateur nationals - I was not good enough let's not kid myself - let alone at the pro level. Because I was - at the time - a 35 years old dad with shaky knees and I knew my limitations.
There is an Arab proverb that says "May God have mercy on a man who knows his limits". I try to live close to that.
Not sure you'll listen but what you seem to look for is more a spiritual experience than a fighting performance.
You'll find that if you join a healthy and family like martial arts community, aka a good gym. It just won't be an immediate dopamin rush of one night, but a delayed one for life.
Bare knuckle is a bad idea, think it trough again.
Best luck brother.