hey fellas, i have a question? Iam in a gym now for about a half year. i made a agreement with the instructor, that iam only pay when i come to train (because i am in every holidays in another country and stuff and paying the whole year with coming just an half would be too much). The trainer was very friendly and cool. Lately i had a not soo cozy time, because my father died, i had also some debts and absolute no money (barely enough for living a couple of month only from rice and noodles, taste terrible if you mix both :icon_surp). because i was very busy with college and work and had no money for training i decided to take a training break for a couple of month until things get a bit better. when i finally came back (with paying of course!) the trainer seemed to changed his attitude towards me. he shows no interest anymore to continue boosting me like he did on beginning and like he still does to other, in fact he tried more often to expose me as a stupid or not talented infront of the other students. i dont care about that but the really annoying thing is that we do some technics with partners and not everybody got one, iam everytime the one, who has to wait, same thing with rolling. i really noticed that everybody is getting better except me and thats really making me sick. i once tried to explain him my situation but it seemed that he thought iam a drama queen making my life worse than it is in order to have his pity and get some free training or something. i dont feel like in a bad situation, it could be worse and iam surely didnt want a free training or charity. everybody would say now: ok then change the gym but thats unfortunatly not possible because there are not other gyms in town. bjj is underdeveloped here! sometimes i would love to tap him infront of all other students but iam just a white belt and hes a good purple and as you may read in this far too long threat he hinders me in getting better. what would you do in this situation? do you find my thoughts exaggerated?