I lost my wife yesterday.

[Diogenes of Sinope]

She's gone. She passed away in her sleep for no apparent reason in the wee hours of the morning & I'm in total shock. I'm completely & utterly devastated. And I hurt so bad that it's even painful to breathe. Fuck, I don't even want to draw my next breath without her.

I'm posting here as a means to vent & to reach out because I'm totally alone here in Arizona. I've reached out to family, of course, but I still haven't notified her friends via phone or Facebook yet because I just can't face crying anymore. But I still need to distract myself from the emptiness & silence of this house. So, I've got the television on loud & I'm composing this as my heart lies shattered in my chest.

God, I loved her so much, guys. I mean, I think it was pretty obvious by how much I mentioned her & posted about her here. But you'd have to multiply that many times over to grasp how much I really loved her. And now, she's gone.

I won't know what happened to her until sometime Monday. Right now, I haven't got a clue. She was so young & so fit other than a couple of lingering issues from her tough battle with COVID last summer. She still experienced bouts of fatigue & she occasionally got a rattle in her lungs that she never dealt with before COVID. But other than that her doctor said she was in excellent health. None of this makes sense.

As I sit here alone all I can think of is how much I wish I had held her & told her I loved her even more often than I did. So, please, everyone. Take advantage of every moment that you can with your loved ones & be sure that you let them know how much you love them because time can be so damned short.

Rest in peace, my beloved wife, Jana. You were my life, baby & I don't want to go on without you.

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I’m sorry brother. I’ve been through similar situations, obviously not the same. But I can definitely offer some advice if you need any. Feel free to reach out. You’ll get through this, promise

 

[no fat chicks]

So sorry this has happened to you ts
As the other posters stated the love you had for her showed through all the posts.
You've been one of the more genuine posters here and definitely didn't deserve this.

 

[Maaj19]

Very sorry for your loss

 

[Applehead]

Holy shit, man. I don’t even know what to say. I’ve seen you post about her a lot on here and she sounded like a very pleasant person. You adored her. My deepest condolences for your loss. If you’re ever feeling down and want to talk just to talk, feel free to shoot me a message. My door’s always open. I’m very sorry.

 

[TheWobbler]

Terrible news. Im sorry for your loss TS.

 

[Seano]

Sorry to hear this @sweetviolenturg . I wish there was something I could do.

 

[neverwas]

@sweetviolenturg my heart is breaking for you, i can only add my deepest condolences to those who have already expressed theirs.

 

[Dan O]

Damn brother, sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine losing my wife. Stay strong man.

 

[Le Mercenaire]

Condolences... quite jarring.

 

[fingercuffs]

Holy shit, man. I don’t even know what to say. I’ve seen you post about her a lot on here and she sounded like a very pleasant person. You adored her. My deepest condolences for your loss. If you’re ever feeling down and want to talk just to talk, feel free to shoot me a message. My door’s always open. I’m very sorry.

I felt like I knew her he spoke about her with such love. She was kind, brainy as all buggery, gorgeous inside and out. Can't imagine what he's going through.

 

[raty tat tat]

I want to say even though I never been married
@sweetviolenturg I don't what you going
through emotionally. I still feel for you what
you're going through.

I hope yours and her family will see you soon
so you don't have to go through this alone.

 

[Strychnine]

Sorry I did not make myself clear: I was referring to the OP. I had a hard time processing that Jana had passed away so suddenly. My comment was not in any way directed at your post, except to agree with you regarding how shocking this tragedy is.

Hope that clears things up.

It does and thank you. We're good.

We're all here for you @sweetviolenturg . We've got your back.

 

[SL1200]

I'm very sorry for your loss.. I know it's not much but if you ever need someone to talk to that's not close to you then don't hesitate!

 

[Applehead]

I felt like I knew her he spoke about her with such love. She was kind, brainy as all buggery, gorgeous inside and out. Can't imagine what he's going through.

I know, right? I had to do a double-take when I saw the title and even then, I was like "no way he's talking about his wife. He was just talking about her the other day." Unfortunately, it was true. I'm still shocked and just feel awful for him. I explained to him in another thread. I've been consistently lurking on this forum for an extremely long time. I originally came here around 2006. Had an original account that got banned well over 10 years ago from getting into an argument over the Patriots with an old mod in the sports section and just never made another account until now. I've seen a ton of different people come through here over the years. All types of different personalities and sometimes gimmicks. I can say with certainty that sweetviolenturg is consistently one of the most gentlemanly guys on this forum. Really cool stories, too. Just an all around good guy. I'm heartbroken for him. I don't even really know what else to say other than I'm sorry and that my door's open and I'm here to listen if he ever wants to chat just to chat.

 

[dc007]

Oh my god. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you're in now.

 

[fingercuffs]

I know, right? I had to do a double-take when I saw the title and even then, I was like "no way he's talking about his wife. He was just talking about her the other day." Unfortunately, it was true. I'm still shocked and just feel awful for him. I explained to him in another thread. I've been consistently lurking on this forum for an extremely long time. I originally came here around 2006. Had an original account that got banned well over 10 years ago from getting into an argument over the Patriots with an old mod in the sports section and just never made another account until now. I've seen a ton of different people come through here over the years. All types of different personalities and sometimes gimmicks. I can say with certainty that sweetviolenturg is consistently one of the most gentlemanly guys on this forum. Really cool stories, too. Just an all around good guy. I'm heartbroken for him. I don't even really know what else to say other than I'm sorry and that my door's open and I'm here to listen if he ever wants to chat just to chat.

I think that really is helping. He didn't have to explain why he was making the thread, it's going to hit you like a ton of bricks especially since the last year has been so rough for them. He's one of life's treasures, has never got into slagging matches on here, I'm touched that you as a lurker know about him and and Jana. He's an open and honest book. His son will be there soon hopefully which will take some pressure off. I'm blindsided as I know many of us are reading what's just happened.

When nasty things happen to lovely people who don't deserve it, it really flippin smarts.

 

[Applehead]

I think that really is helping. He didn't have to explain why he was making the thread, it's going to hit you like a ton of bricks especially since the last year has been so rough for them. He's one of life's treasures, has never got into slagging matches on here, I'm touched that you as a lurker know about him and and Jana. He's an open and honest book. His son will be there soon hopefully which will take some pressure off. I'm blindsided as I know many of us are reading what's just happened.

When nasty things happen to lovely people who don't deserve it, it really flippin smarts.

I try to read everything I can on here, if I'm being honest. I've become familiar with the regulars and associate them with what they normally like to talk about. With him, I know him primarily from his boxing stories and about his wife. He adored his wife a lot and I always found that endearing on here because a lot of posters on here tend to complain about their relationships/marriages and he always seemed so settled and comfortable in his. It was sweet. How someone speaks about someone when they know they're not looking says everything about how they feel about them. No question how he felt about Jana. Along with the other posters in this thread, I'll be here for him as much as possible.

On a separate note and I don't want to take away from the topic of the thread. This conversation can be had elsewhere, but you're the woman who bought your husband flying lessons for his birthday, correct? Tell him to stick with it. I'm a private pilot with instrument training, who plans on instructing it one day. It's an amazing thing and community to get involved in. That's what I wanted to say.

 

[JSN]

Jesus Christ @sweetviolenturg that is horrible. I’m so sorry, man. RIP

 

[The_Renaissance]

Fuck, sorry to hear that man, that's awful.

 

[fingercuffs]

I try to read everything I can on here, if I'm being honest. I've become familiar with the regulars and associate them with what they normally like to talk about. With him, I know him primarily from his boxing stories and about his wife. He adored his wife a lot and I always found that endearing on here because a lot of posters on here tend to complain about their relationships/marriages and he always seemed so settled and comfortable in his. It was sweet. How someone speaks about someone when they know they're not looking says everything about how they feel about them. No question how he felt about Jana. Along with the other posters in this thread, I'll be here for him as much as possible.

On a separate note and I don't want to take away from the topic of the thread. This conversation can be had elsewhere, but you're the woman who bought your husband flying lessons for his birthday, correct? Tell him to stick with it. I'm a private pilot with instrument training, who plans on instructing it one day. It's an amazing thing and community to get involved in. That's what I wanted to say.

There are many people here who are genuine, I had a hiatus for a bit and didn't know who a lot of new regulars were, he was the first 'new' person I became pally with and hearing his stories, it would be difficult not to enjoy reading.

Talk to you at another time another place flying wise, stupid Covid, I just tried to book more lessons but it isn't possible.