I know, I've been there. One friend I'd known for over 20 years, he's the guy who helped me get musical equipment. I never fully paid him back, but honestly, I don't know if that's really what he turned on me over. I'll never know because I'm not gonna take abuse from people when I think it's not really deserved. I just think he got more and more involved with drugs and it just fucked up his brains and made him paranoid. But, as I say, I learned form it, I keep things as above board as possible and communicate things very, very clearly insofar as business and money are concerned. I'm an honest person and I don't even want the suspicion of me trying to screw people out there.
my other close friends just turned on me because I worked for their business and I didn't want to work for them anymore, that simple. Both times it was painful and those kinds of things just make me keep my world very, very small. I don't like people trying to rent space in my head and trying to make me think I'm something that I'm not. If I have to spend most of my time completely alone, that's what I'll do. It is not worth the drama for when people show their true selves. It's a lot of time and energy. It's difficult because I don't like saying no and somehow I attract people who always take advantage of that but I'm on it at all times trying to keep them all in check. In fact, I'm gonna change my cell number soon and tell people in my life to email me if they want to communicate. No one seems to respect boundaries.