Anyone suffer from depression?

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I've suffered with it most of my life, it got worse after I left highschool so from the age of 16/17. Since then I've been on medication (citalopram/celexa) for about 10 years now (im 29) it's hard to enjoy most things and I spent most of the last 10 years smoking weed and drinking, i've quit both now for just over a month.

As I were younger I questioned if I even had depression or if it was just the way I was as a person, some people are happier than others etc but as I grew older it's more apparent what an illness it is. I'm grumpy and irritable most of the time which people just think are my personality traits.

Depression is like a big wave that takes over stopping you from enjoying things most people do, I don't look forward to anything and i've never really been excited about anything, which is why i'm sort of making this thread today. All my family are out having a good time getting drunk and being merry but I just stay in, I got gifts and money which i'm thankful for but these dont effect my mood in the slightest.

When you've been on medication for so long you question who you really are as a person, it numbs you to some things especially anxiety etc but you never really know how you feel about things. I'd like to quit but it makes you feel 10x worse, just halving my dose recently really fucked my head up..

Anyway anyone else here suffer from depression?
 
Every time I come to Mayberry and see these types of threads I do.
 
i dont know man, sure i've felt bummed out about things every now and then, but not for long, because i drink, a lot
 
Maybe but listening to Huey Lewis and the News always cheers me up. I think their undisputed masterpiece is "Hip To Be Square". A song so catchy, most people probably don't listen to the lyrics.
 
I have been depressed for years before in the past. Had more to do with me hating myself for being an alcoholic dead beat father than anything though. I have a bad inferiority complex
 
You are smart. You stop drinking. Now little by little start training boxing. Buy bag or make one. First run 5 10 minutes then hit that bag 1 round 5 minutes. Do 3 rounds then lift weights fast. And look to future in 2 3 years you will be able to do anything
 
I felt sad when a street fighting thread I made got deleted :(
 
ZOD66 said:
You are smart. You stop drinking. Now little by little start training boxing. Buy bag or make one. First run 5 10 minutes then hit that bag 1 round 5 minutes. Do 3 rounds then lift weights fast. And look to future in 2 3 years you will be able to do anything
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I'm trying to go gym as much as I can want this festive period to be over so things are open normally again n then eventually go boxing training
 
Depression runs in my family.

I've been in a negative place for a couple of months, but truly, I don't leave the depression for very long.

I am also an introvert, so that compounds things.

I was taking Venlofaxine once the Prozec quit working for me. It seemed to help, then started affecting my sleep, which made everything even worse. My Doc then doubled the dosage because the first amount wasn't enough according to him, and the sleep thing was because I was taking it at bedtime. That really screwed up my sleeping. Then I had a stomach bug about the time that I needed to refill my Rx, and so I quit them cold turkey. I felt great and actually had energy for a few weeks. Then everything kinda went back to depression.

I have another Doc appointment next month. I don't want to go back on an anti-depressant, but they do even out my moods.

So, yeah, I have experienced depression. It sucks. I'm not suicidal. That has never been an issue for me.

I think exercise may help me some. Actually doing it on the regular is not easy.
 
Not really. My happy / sad ratio change from time to time. But no long periodes of serious depressions.

Probably a typical boring statement. But i truly believe that martial arts and hard training is what help me the most trough the hard times in life.
 
clivers said:
I don't look forward to anything and i've never really been excited about anything, which is why i'm sort of making this thread today.
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Do you look forward to using the toilet instead of going in your pants?

Its likely you do look forward to things but your scope only comes into focus in times of immediate action.

since you are complaining here. you should figure out a way to adjust your scopes focus from immediate action to slightly less imediate action.

so whats one step of preparation past urgency? something like bathing yourself.
then 1 step past that is something like cleaning your drawer, and then your room ect. most people fail at the room part and are in the same position as you.
 
i'm a depressed little fucker tbh. i can't remember being any other way. when i was 14 i started seeing a good therapist and went into a special program. took two years of therapy and groups and shit, but when i was 16 i was finally happy. so happy that it just overwhelmed me and i never wanted to let go of that feeling. then while i was 17 that went away and ive never been happy again since.

i went to get help last year, and started seeing a psychiatrist and . . . whatever the other people are. been trying meds for the first time. the meds for my skitzo shit are working. but it's not going so well with the anti depressants. they were working for a few months, but now depression is creeping back up. i kinda wanna just say fuck it, and give up. give up on what exactly? im not sure. i get frustrated because i don't want to be like this, yet here i am despite any effort. meh. i just think this is a really shitty way to live, and how much longer can you drag it out? it's not even worth it to try imo.
 
Kardashians said:
i'm a depressed little fucker tbh. i can't remember being any other way. when i was 14 i started seeing a good therapist and went into a special program. took two years of therapy and groups and shit, but when i was 16 i was finally happy. so happy that it just overwhelmed me and i never wanted to let go of that feeling. then while i was 17 that went away and ive never been happy again since.

i went to get help last year, and started seeing a psychiatrist and . . . whatever the other people are. been trying meds for the first time. the meds for my skitzo shit are working. but it's not going so well with the anti depressants. they were working for a few months, but now depression is creeping back up. i kinda wanna just say fuck it, and give up. give up on what exactly? im not sure. i get frustrated because i don't want to be like this, yet here i am despite any effort. meh. i just think this is a really shitty way to live, and how much longer can you drag it out? it's not even worth it to try imo.
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how old are u
 
Kardashians said:
i'm a depressed little fucker tbh. i can't remember being any other way. when i was 14 i started seeing a good therapist and went into a special program. took two years of therapy and groups and shit, but when i was 16 i was finally happy. so happy that it just overwhelmed me and i never wanted to let go of that feeling. then while i was 17 that went away and ive never been happy again since.

i went to get help last year, and started seeing a psychiatrist and . . . whatever the other people are. been trying meds for the first time. the meds for my skitzo shit are working. but it's not going so well with the anti depressants. they were working for a few months, but now depression is creeping back up. i kinda wanna just say fuck it, and give up. give up on what exactly? im not sure. i get frustrated because i don't want to be like this, yet here i am despite any effort. meh. i just think this is a really shitty way to live, and how much longer can you drag it out? it's not even worth it to try imo.
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Really? If my daughter ends up being lesbian like you I hope she is thrilled to only have to enjoy box. No penis needed for her.
 
Depression suffers me..

But seriously.. yes .. it sucks .. anyone who's taking the piss has never been there...

Intelligent folk are more likely to be depressed, something to do with higher self awareness..
 
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