Thoughts of suicide

[Robocok]

I went through this recently but the feeling has passed now. I didn't want to post about it in BEER's thread and take attention away from him, so thought it might be good to make a thread to share these feelings.

I was feeling down because I've had my own business since 2014 and the last month or so has not been great. I was concerned that I can't take care of my son and pay child support and other bills. This made me depressed and made it hard to concentrate on my work.

I also broke up with my girlfriend somewhat recently so that had me bummed out too. Even though I was the one that ended it I still would feel lonely and depressed about it.

I think another factor is that I was drinking distilled water for the last few weeks and I just recently discovered that this can deplete the body of electrolytes so I feel like that might have contributed to my depression and inability to think clearly and concentrate also. That one is kind of embarrassing. I feel like a dumbass for not knowing that but I've been drinking regular water the last couple days and my mood and thought process has improved.

Anyway, I don't feel like killing myself now and am motivated to work harder on my business and am also really interested in real estate and am studying everyday to get my license.

If you want to talk about yourself, feel free to share.

 

[*Z*]

You certainly can't take care of your son if you're not alive. You made the right choice.

 

[Zer]

Anyway, I don't feel like killing myself now and am motivated to work harder on my business and am also really interested in real estate and am studying everyday to get my license.

That's good to hear bro. I've also been suicidal in the past but now I'm glad I stuck around

 

[Garibaldi]

Good for u man. Even if life can seem harsh at the moment. One never knows what is waiting around the next turn. And that is the best argument against suicide, that things will be better.

 

[weed]

well now that you know
you're one of us - a Sherbro
we're here for you, yo

 

[Horse Style]

I am torn on the suicide issue. While I won't encourage someone to do it, I also won't do the whole "you matter, it gets better" mantra because I don't know the person's situation.

And it doesn't always get better

 

[Joe Wong]

Glad you're doing a lot better TS, I've been around suicidal people my entire life so I'm always glad to hear positive stories.

 

[minute bull]

It's good to talk about it with someone who can help you figure out coping methods while anxiety is high. Not just venting or recounting online, but serious talk therapy that can been done with face-to-face groups or professionals.

For the US:
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

1-800-273-8255

 

[weed]

That's good to hear bro. I've also been suicidal in the past but now I'm glad I stuck around

I'm glad you stuck around bro.

same goes for you @Robocok

repeat that sentence in your head, without the context, how hilarious is that?

 

[Doughbelly]

That's good to hear bro. I've also been suicidal in the past but now I'm glad I stuck around

Same. There were days when I woke up in the morning and sat with a gun in my hand just waiting for a reason to come to me for why I should get my ass moving that day instead of moving on from this life. Glad that every day, something happened.

 

[*Z*]

I had a friend who constantly was going through rough times. The guy lived through 4 heart attacks, was on and off drugs, got his kid taken away by his ex. He was making threats of suicide on facebook and I would try to tell him not to do it, that he had friends who cared and he would get through it. I honestly believed he would never do it, that he was just angry about how shitty everything was. The guy hung himself in a park just outside of town. One of the saddest downward spirals I have ever personally seen. I felt bad for a long time thinking I could have done more to help him.

 

[Scott Parker 27]

I had a friend who constantly was going through rough times. The guy lived through 4 heart attacks, was on and off drugs, got his kid taken away by his ex. He was making threats of suicide on facebook and I would try to tell him not to do it, that he had friends who cared and he would get through it. I honestly believed he would never do it, that he was just angry about how shitty everything was. The guy hung himself in a park just outside of town. One of the saddest downward spirals I have ever personally seen. I felt bad for a long time thinking I could have done more to help him.

Nah, nothing you could have done. When it finally gets to that point the person has exhausted all other options in their mind.There was no stopping my pops when he made up his mind to do it.

 

[TrippleOG]

Tranny hookers and Blow in Mexico saved my life.

 

[dawnignited]

I've mentioned a couple times previously in these kinds of threads the kind of shit I've been through, and though I won't pretend talking is immediately going to make things better, it does help. It's not healthy to keep that kind of negativity bottled up. Whether it's a family member, friend, or a professional, I promise there is someone out there who will listen.

 

[*Z*]

Nah, nothing you could have done. When it finally gets to that point the person has exhausted all other options in their mind.There was no stopping my pops when he made up his mind to do it.

Yep, took a bit for me to realize this but you are right.

 

[Brampton_Boy]

Same. There were days when I woke up in the morning and sat with a gun in my hand just waiting for a reason to come to me for why I should get my ass moving that day instead of moving on from this life. Glad that every day, something happened.

To think that some of our most brilliant (@Doughbelly) and funny posters ( @Zer ) have contemplated suicide reminds me that mental illness can affect all of us, independent of race, class, gender etc. Having also struggled with depression and anxiety, I would say the most important thing you can do is ask for help. It doesn't make you weak or demonstrate vulnerability, it is simply accepting that to be a better you, you have to lean on others.

Good luck OP - you made the right choice to stick around.

 

[Cubo de Sangre]

My philosophy with suicide is why hasten the inevitable? You'll have eternity to be dead so make the best out of life.

 

[Andersons Foot]

I think it's important to just keep pushing forward. Things will get better if you're putting in the effort.

 

[I Am Legion]

Jeebus. This thread is no joke. I feel for you sherbros. I suffer stress but am truly a happy person and I count myself lucky. I will say that if it's chemical get help. If it's situational drag yourself out of it and change your scenery. Life has TONS to offer if you are willing to take advantage of it. Truly amazing things out there.

 

[sloppypie]

It's great to talk and air out your thoughts and emotions. Probably the best thing this forum does aside from trolling is its very supportive of people with depression and harmful thoughts. Most guys posting here have been through some shit and bring a lot of empathy that can otherwise be hard to find.

Something a friend of mine told me is he always felt too ashamed to talk to anyone irl about his suicidal thoughts so he went to a prevention website where he could talk to people anonymously. And shame is a powerful emotion, one we overlook in the states bc we have a general philosophy that success breeds from failure, forgetting that failing can really, really fucking suck.

So keep staying open with people, you made a good choice and a second one by posting here