There's days, I love being a photographer, videographer and camera editor. Nowadays, I'm in a mix between heaven and hell.
I love learning new stuff, it's a trade you have to be in for years to know all it's tips and tricks, and twenty years later you'll still be learning. The better you get, the better clients you get, the harder jobs you get. Sometimes I feel less like an artist/creator (not to be elitist) but more of a computer technician, which I really don't enjoy.
It's also not the healthiest of jobs in the world. Most guys I know in the business are experiencing a lot of shoulder, neck and back problems. Many are overweight to obese (me included) and dragging crates of heavy gear day in day out doesn't improve the situation. Work early, work late, work at night, eat in a truck stop or grab a slice of pizza in between shots, it's not the lifestyle I would have imagined. I'm blessed to have other ventures in life than this, because I understand a lot of people burn out trying to make too much content or working impossible hours, often for peanuts.
The photography community is a lot more toxic than the video community, main reason I think is because the video guys are still getting money so they don't have the feeling to shoot down on everyone.
Today I received a few thingies I bought second hand online, a walimex 14mm f2.8 fullframe lens, that I checked and sadly has the rear element slightly scratched and a 2x converter that seems to work well. The scratch doesn't seem visible in low apertures, I'm going to take it outside tomorrow to see what happens in higher apertures.
I think next year, I'm going to stop all video and photo work for clients and work on a documentary or one or two youtube channels.