Like eternity. Even stopping me from acting on it. Paralyzed, with my brain on a loop of all that is happening. Heading out into the cold to try, at least. Send out a message in a bottle to nowhere, with no reply. Someone help
Like eternity. Even stopping me from acting on it. Paralyzed, with my brain on a loop of all that is happening. Heading out into the cold to try, at least. Send out a message in a bottle to nowhere, with no reply. Someone help
Cliff's: cancer, back problems keeping me from working without severe pain, trying to keep money coming in till I am gone. Welded 6 hours yesterday in a 15° garage, couldn't make it in to the living room of the house from the car. I'm on my way to do another 6 hours right now. Going to be biting on leather just to stand. The misery. This is miserable.
Cliff's: cancer, back problems keeping me from working without severe pain, trying to keep money coming in till I am gone. Welded 6 hours yesterday in a 15° garage, couldn't make it in to the living room of the house from the car. I'm on my way to do another 6 hours right now. Going to be biting on leather just to stand. The misery. This is miserable.
If it didn't make me so tired.I recommend:
Thanks.Sorry to hear how you're struggling bro. I hope shit gets better. You always have your sherbros here
Update. Welded until 3. Sat through most of it, so my back didn't get worse, but still kills. Driving to pick up my 2 son's, hitting dips and taking turns in the car, yikes. That pain. Drop the boys off, head back again to weld. Will stand in a burning hot shower tonight when I get home, throw up, go to bed. Some day I will turn into energy and float away before I wake, or just enter the blackness.
When I was young, my dad left us in the dust, grew up poor, went through so much bad because of it. I have been a awesome dad to my 3 kids (one stepchild since she was 2). I never gave up. Ever. Never will.
There's a lot of young and single guys here, or ones with women but no kids-
My advice? Don't have them if you are a weak fuck that gives up. Don't even consider children. And if you are having them, stick it out. Be tough. Plan ahead. Save.
This could mean 2 things,