@Stargazer Rex I believe I had some sort of out of body experience or lucid dream or something deep last night
At about 2:30 am I jolted awake and my mind was suddenly clear for the first time in a couple weeks and I just sat there thinking about what i had went through
The realization came over me that i had actually almost killed myself through my reckless actions, I was legitimately close to being done for
Up to that point, the past two weeks were all just a cloudy haze so I wasnt really processing any of what had happened but at that point I felt the cold grip of reality hit me
I dont know if this "dream" happened before I woke up at 2:30 am or after I went back to sleep but its all tied together
Usually, when I dream, everything is kinda abstract, I'll be at home but its not really my house or its my house from childhood and people will be different or whatever, my point is usually its easy for me to tell its a dream
This was not like that at all, this was me in my house in my current state being chased by 3 ghosts that represented the Grim Reaper
It wasnt dreamlike at all, I could clearly see the apparitions face and he was making his intent known to me flat out and directly, he was there to kill me
Im trying to fight him off but he was a ghost so i couldnt hit him which clicked something in my mind, I literally realized my dreams dont usually go like this, this is something else
At that point, I exited my body and floated above myself and just stayed there looking down at myself as I slept on my couch, there was nothing dream like about it, it was actually me exactly how I looked on my real couch etc
My interactions with the Reaper went on a bit but he never got me and I dont exactly remember how it ended
Obviously, I understand what the "dream" meant and what the apparition was telling me but its something I have never ever experienced before, the out of body bit is a completely new experience to me
Just thought this was something you might find interesting and have some thoughts on, feel free to comment if you'd like