Mental health and aging.

[Wrath of Foamy]

It's open enrollment time for healthcare at work so ai had to go talk to HR to set up my elections. We set it up then she tells me I need to put a beneficiary down for my life insurance. We go back and forth for like then minutes.

With me telling her over and over the only person who's SSN# I know is my own. I do not have family/a next of kin to put down. Finally all pissy she says she'll note my file but someone might reach out to me because it says I HAVE to have one.

Like listen bitch I'm pretty sure it isn't illegal to be friendless with no family, but thanks for trying as hard as possible to make me feel bad about it.

LOL

Reminds me of a conversation that I had over the phone...

"I hate to ask this but err........have you had any.....thoughts to er......harm yourself err....in the last fifteen years?"

Me, thinking about the fact that I've thought about offing myself once a week or so for two decades...

"No...."

Same with being homeless and needing a place of address to get a job...

Chin up mate. Nothing is certain. Don't let it get the better of you. Keep a clear head. Start plotting.

It does sound like you could benefit from a move though...

 

[Mike]

LOL

Reminds me of a conversation that I had over the phone...

"I hate to ask this but err........have you had any.....thoughts to er......harm yourself err....in the last fifteen years?"

Me, thinking about the fact that I've thought about offing myself once a week or so for two decades...

"No...."

Same with being homeless and needing a place of address to get a job...

Chin up mate. Nothing is certain. Don't let it get the better of you. Keep a clear head. Start plotting.

It does sound like you could benefit from a move though...

Little bit of good news, I completely spaced the quarterly attendance bonus. So that's an extra like $650 I wasn't planning on. Between November and December I have five paid holidays and our performance bonus. So I should be able to look at places soon.

 

[Wrath of Foamy]

Little bit of good news, I completely spaced the quarterly attendance bonus. So that's an extra like $650 I wasn't planning on. Between November and December I have five paid holidays and our performance bonus. So I should be able to look at places soon.

Good job brother.

Watching your mental health is always a good move, but sometimes it's just best to knuckle down and try to get something better...

 

[SandisLL]

I don't think that age alone might be decisive factor.
Why we had to see Queen approx the same when she was 60 y.o and 90 y.o ? Like nothing much had changed in reality. Ofc also 70+ y.o Mr Putin and Lukashenko where we might see...u know.

 

[lowlife]

Yeah I'm pretty crazy too. ADHD with some manic depression and I'm sure a touch of the 'tism. Also didn't start to realize all that until much later in life, after many years of struggles. I'm at my best when I'm 100% sober and that includes caffeine. Eating healthy, going for walks and working out, engaging my crazy hyper focused mind, etc. Healthy habits and a healthy lifestyle puts us in the best position to deal with the crazy. I know it can be incredibly hard to get going. Executive dysfunction can be a bitch. The trick for me is to be too dumb and stubborn to ever give up. I routinely fall off, then I eventually get up and start again. I'm hoping to eventually get to some next level where I have it under even more control.

edit: started going through replies. OP you need help in the worst way bro. Whatever you need to do in order to seek professional help I think you need to do that. That kind of depression is a crippling spiral. Please do this for yourself and see it through.

 

[Mike]

Just wanted to give a little update. I didn't stay 100% sober as I'm so stressed I'm having a hard time doing that. I DID
succeed in staying not sloppy drunk long enough to get my bearings back and start to be able to think logically again.

Ever since I'd moved I was really struggling because of how crappy and tiny my apartment was while being in one of the worst neighborhoods in town. Long hours and all my free time spent in basically a jail cell with a computer.

But the mistake I made, was telling myself I should become completely debt free before moving. One of the side effects of my linear thinking is when I get in ruts I become convinced I must do everything in a certain order to get out.

Well it hit me that it's better to get out and improve my mental health now, and saving money and sobering up should be easier in a better environment. So I hustled to look at places and got a new apartment and got everything moved.

Just spent my weekend moving everything over and cleaning out my old place. A fresh start. I NEEDED it. Things were so bad, something had to change. I partially wanted to post just to update people, and partially just because I didn't believe I could do it. When I moved into that place things were so bad I convinced myself I'd never get it together again. But a year and a half later I doubled my income from then and got into a bigger place. No matter how bad it is you CAN do it, even when it feels impossible.

 

[whocares]

Fuck yeah dude! Glad to hear it. That's a huge step, and important. It's going to be easier to maneuver without being in such a dire living situation and all the stress it brings. Work on one task at a time, one day at a time. Don't put the weight of the world on your shoulders to solve every problem at once. It'll all come together eventually.

 

[TCE]

Just wanted to give a little update. I didn't stay 100% sober as I'm so stressed I'm having a hard time doing that. I DID
succeed in staying not sloppy drunk long enough to get my bearings back and start to be able to think logically again.

Ever since I'd moved I was really struggling because of how crappy and tiny my apartment was while being in one of the worst neighborhoods in town. Long hours and all my free time spent in basically a jail cell with a computer.

But the mistake I made, was telling myself I should become completely debt free before moving. One of the side effects of my linear thinking is when I get in ruts I become convinced I must do everything in a certain order to get out.

Well it hit me that it's better to get out and improve my mental health now, and saving money and sobering up should be easier in a better environment. So I hustled to look at places and got a new apartment and got everything moved.

Just spent my weekend moving everything over and cleaning out my old place. A fresh start. I NEEDED it. Things were so bad, something had to change. I partially wanted to post just to update people, and partially just because I didn't believe I could do it. When I moved into that place things were so bad I convinced myself I'd never get it together again. But a year and a half later I doubled my income from then and got into a bigger place. No matter how bad it is you CAN do it, even when it feels impossible.

Brilliant to hear, Sherbro. Well done.

 

[Meatspin]

Solid progress, you should be proud.