I wish to pursue MMA but Im depressed over my past

[Goodfella86]

Thank you all for the support. I had no Idea this would reach so many people.. I guess when you keep things simple.. Lots of people can relate.. Especially to depression ay?

And to the Naysayers believing that I am trolling. Im really not ha ha.. My story is crazy but I so wish I can go back in time to 18yo before all this.

The truth is I kissed two trannies 3 Years ago when I was a heavily medicated virgin.

I get and gotten with so many girls in college, Including even now but still.. I kissed two men. How could I court a girl that Im talking with right now on Tinder when I have this sick secret past. .
"Oh hey btw I kissed two men.. yeah just so you know babe."
I only go after the most beautiful women in my eyes. But how could I see myself as having such high standards for myself when I had such low standards those two times..

Your not Females. your Men. I felt so numb on pills I wasn't even prescribed n porn I didn't give a Fuck at all. After I did lose my virginity to a real girl my age off OkCupid but still... Now that im Off..

Fuck it Idc anymore. Make fun of me but I did it lol. Feel good letting it out tbh. Crazy shit LOL I was literally Insane.

 

[20falarVerdades]

Thank you all for the support. I had no Idea this would reach so many people.. I guess when you keep things simple.. Lots of people can relate.. Especially to depression ay?

And to the Naysayers believing that I am trolling. Im really not ha ha.. My story is crazy but I so wish I can go back in time to 18yo before all this.

The truth is I kissed two trannies 3 Years ago when I was a heavily medicated virgin.

I get and gotten with so many girls in college, Including even now but still.. I kissed two men. How could I court a girl that Im talking with right now on Tinder when I have this sick secret past. .
"Oh hey btw I kissed two men.. yeah just so you know babe."
I only go after the most beautiful women in my eyes. But how could I see myself as having such high standards for myself when I had such low standards those two times..

Your not Females. your Men. I felt so numb on pills I wasn't even prescribed n being addicted to porn for 10 years I didn't give a Fuck at all. After I did lose my virginity to a real girl my age off OkCupid but still... Now that im Off..

Fuck it Idc anymore. Make fun of me but I did it lol. Feel good letting it out tbh. Crazy shit LOL I was literally Insane.

I know a guy who got a blowjob from tranny by mistake, he thought it was a woman, but later Paty (short for Patricia) would reveal that she was, in fact, born a man. I believe he's over it as he's had a beautiful girlfriend for a while. Best of luck TS

 

[Jdanois]

So you're bi or just experimenting. Dude, it's 2018. Don't sweat it. Be yourself, you'll be much happier.

 

[Deleted member 460645]

Haha..Thats a good one

I really hope my post didn't come across as douchey. I was trying to make you laugh, man.

I'm serious when I say if you need to talk you can message me. I actually went to school for that haha

 

[IDGETKTFO]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

This is what happens when you realize you can make more money using your brain as a hammer, instead of a punching bag. You should feel proud.

 

[Munnings242]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

It definitely will affects your ability to promote u lack confidence u don't want to be seen or judged which will happen as a fighter that's a respect I give to all fighters they are expected to lookand act perfect at all times especially for the women my advice just go along with it you're most likely depressed because u see everyone living the life on snapchat the only way u can live that life is if u become successful and mma can guarantee that

 

[LouisBolanos]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

So I got really depressed after my divorce and I found listening to Jordan Peterson's lectures and controlled self harm to be particularly useful for getting me out of my rut where I was just being catatonic all day not feeling anything.

What you want to do is buy one of these derma rollers with 1mm needles, and whenever you feel numb just put on a Jordan Peterson podcast and rub the derma roller against your skin. It'll create numerous micro puncher wounds, they're harmless but it will make you feel a certain amount of pain so you know you are still alive. Start with your arm and gradually move to more sensitive areas of your body once you adapt to the pain, and let Jordan's voice soothe you while you do it.

Make sure to sanitize the derma roller with rubbing alcohol otherwise you might get an infection. Good luck, hope you can recover from your depression!

 

[CerebralKnievel]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

Jones is not plagued by demons. He's plagued by being an empty, confused geek with no real personality.

 

[GrapeJuiceMMA]

So I got really depressed after my divorce and I found listening to Jordan Peterson's lectures and controlled self harm to be particularly useful for getting me out of my rut where I was just being catatonic all day not feeling anything.

What you want to do is buy one of these derma rollers with 1mm needles, and whenever you feel numb just put on a Jordan Peterson podcast and rub the derma roller against your skin. It'll create numerous micro puncher wounds, they're harmless but it will make you feel a certain amount of pain so you know you are still alive. Start with your arm and gradually move to more sensitive areas of your body once you adapt to the pain, and let Jordan's voice soothe you while you do it.

Make sure to sanitize the derma roller with rubbing alcohol otherwise you might get an infection. Good luck, hope you can recover from your depression!

I use that on my hairline lol. Infact it saved and Improved my hairline plus some oils after

 

[GrapeJuiceMMA]

Jones is not plagued by demons. He's plagued by being an empty, confused geek with no real personality.

I always thought his thin legs and dick haunted him. Lol Not tryna troll but he took dick pills and also never has a bulge in his underwear. Idk that was always my little theory.

 

[ClosetVitorFan]

As a fellow sherbro who struggles with mental health issues. I strongly advise not doing mma professionally. You have to be mentally strong in the fight game. But I would say definitely train in mma or bjj it's a good outlet and will help with your depression. Also check out Dr Jordan Peterson. He's helped me a lot.

 

[LouisBolanos]

I use that on my hairline lol. Infact it saved and Improved my hairline plus some oils after

Do you use it with minoxidil?

All the studies I've seen on its efficacy are shady ones from India. I'm still not fully convinced the derma roller isn't just a placebo. Maybe your hair loss contributed to your depression?

@Wadtucket

 

[GrapeJuiceMMA]

Do you use it with minoxidil?

All the studies I've seen on its efficacy are shady ones from India. I'm still not fully convinced the derma roller isn't just a placebo.

@Wadtucket

Could be placebo. Could also just be the oil mixtures I use as well as Emu Oil which blocks DHT in the hair supposedly..

All Ik is I had a recedingish hairline last summer.. I used derma roller few times a week and oils in the receding thinning spots.. My hairline looks straight af now. The oils thickens it too but I dont like to wear it. Only at night now once in a while. Helped a lot. Still a little thin in one area in super bathroom lightening but you cant even tell. It basically looks straight

 

[GrapeJuiceMMA]

Do you use it with minoxidil?

All the studies I've seen on its efficacy are shady ones from India. I'm still not fully convinced the derma roller isn't just a placebo. Maybe your hair loss contributed to your depression?

@Wadtucket

I had the same hairline since I was 16 Lol.

 

[TrueFightFan]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

If you are serious, it really isn't that bad, man... there is plenty to live for, brother.

If you are trolling, you should fucking kill yourself!

 

[Wadtucket]

I derma roll my chram every day and I'm the happiest chap alive

 

[Cheapshart]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

You need drive to get to the top level of anything so you'd need to get right with yourself first.

Go see a therapist. They're trained for this stuff.

 

[2004 account]

So I did some things in my past I regret.. I no longer have that fire inside me of life.. Im numb and depressed...
I dont have the Conor Mcgregor excitement for life and challenge...

I feel more like Jon Jones. Numb and a bunch of demons just going through the motions

Would this effect my MMA career...

Well if I was a fan of Conor or Jones I’d be depressed too.

Jk

Keep ur head up bud. Whatever you decide to do never give up excercising.

 

[GrapeJuiceMMA]

If you are serious, it really isn't that bad, man... there is plenty to live for, brother.

If you are trolling, you should fucking kill yourself!

If you are serious, it really isn't that bad, man... there is plenty to live for, brother.

If you are trolling, you should fucking kill yourself!

I fuck around a bit on here but Im never trolling lol. And Im serious on this thread

 

[tehMoose]

Best cure for depression = magic mushrooms