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Kind of weird.
When I was a kid my parents took me to church, and my mom prayed with me before bed because they were religious, Christians. I would always say a few prayers before bed, until the age of about 16-18 I would guess. After this I embarked on a more spiritual path, more or less. Still finding my way. I am not religious at all and do not believe in god.
However, because of my nightly prayers as a child I still find myself praying to "god" when I am trying to turn things around in my life or something goes wrong that I wish to change to a positive outcome. Just last night I received some terrible personal news and I found myself praying to god to help me out with it. The reasons I think I do this are because; I prayed so much as a kid, so it is a habit and because as a "spiritual person", "atheist" (whatever you want to call it), if I am not praying to god; then who do I speak to when things like this happen? I feel like there is a higher being out there, not a person, not Jesus, not whoever. Perhaps an energy or something. Who really fucking knows.
God dammit.
When I was a kid my parents took me to church, and my mom prayed with me before bed because they were religious, Christians. I would always say a few prayers before bed, until the age of about 16-18 I would guess. After this I embarked on a more spiritual path, more or less. Still finding my way. I am not religious at all and do not believe in god.
However, because of my nightly prayers as a child I still find myself praying to "god" when I am trying to turn things around in my life or something goes wrong that I wish to change to a positive outcome. Just last night I received some terrible personal news and I found myself praying to god to help me out with it. The reasons I think I do this are because; I prayed so much as a kid, so it is a habit and because as a "spiritual person", "atheist" (whatever you want to call it), if I am not praying to god; then who do I speak to when things like this happen? I feel like there is a higher being out there, not a person, not Jesus, not whoever. Perhaps an energy or something. Who really fucking knows.
God dammit.