it would be interesting coming from a respectable human being.
Tbf it's an interesting character study. At least to me.
He doesnt sensationalize anything that he's done and owns up to being a terrible person. He says he wishes his friends would still keep in contact with him, but they dont. But he understands and hopes one day they will.
The thing that stands out to me is that he understands the christian concept, but when he speaks about it, there is so much anger still in his voice, almost like he'd beat someone up who refused to believe in God, if he'd try to convert them.
You can tell he's a guy who rather than suddenly going from zero to 100 is stuck at 70-80 alot of the time, and can barely contain it.
When he was first on the show, i had alot of sympathy for him. He came from a very very bad upringing, and at the time of the show had big problems with his confidence.
After The Ultimate Fighter, he started to lean heavy into this alpha male persona to cover up for his self esteem issues, and that's really where his problems seem to intensify.
Everyone saw the 7-11 video by now lol
The roids and god knows what else he was taking, made it worse. I thought he was a guy who had the potential to do good and was destroyed by his demons. I was curious to see how he was doing in there, which is why I watched the video.
It's clear that although he is trying, there is a long way to go.
Also he stated that the first three years of his sentence were spent in solitary, so that is a total of 5 years this man has done in solitary. That has to have some profound Fx on his mental state. Yikes.
