well health matters, I need to get my sleep in line and yep lose a bit weight gradually. 114/115 is ridiculous for 182 cm. I used to be 84 kg. Many moons ago. I´m so tired I´ll try to nap. Getting sleep to normal is so difficult. I love good sleep.
Wait this thread was something about Maximus and Rocknroller fighting ? Boys stop fighting.
Now that this happened to my friend at age 41, death from heartatack, I do feel paranoid. My brother and mom telling me the same things. It´s scary. My friend was actually very slim and drove his bike for hours. Like he can cover a lot of miles, cycle for 4 hours without a break. But chain smoker. Also too much excercise is bad too, too strenous. Glad I quit smoking. I did smoke 2 today. I want my mom and dad to die peacefully, like just chill sit and whoopsy die, transition to the next realm and I wanna die that way too, please God

. I gotta deserve a good death. I have to be a good person to die calmly. So as precatious meassure I apologize to you Contempt for being a bit annoying here and there, was just jokes.
It is morbidly getting in my head to get warnings about my weight and not excercising too hard. I do feel paranoid. Thing is if I get my deep sleep I feel like a champion. Now I´m switching again to "work shedule" sleep. So getting up early. Soon I gotta do that again each working day (Werktag is a Germany word for the days Monday to Friday). So when I suddenly swap the rythm, I don´t sleep long and uninterupted. Still went to the gym for 2 hours. A bit paranoid. I just wanna take a nap but not too long and be able to sleep again tonight. Be safe people of sherdog.
I once had this thing on my mind, obsesed for like 2 months, randomly went to the doctor, to get a heart check with that machine, basically the doctor thinks I´m crazy or something lol. Check came out clean. I mean I´m scared to ask, dude is gonna think I´m trippin. But never visited a proper cardiologist. Well I don´t have chest pains. In the end if you drive yourself crazy bout such stuff you are gonna die form stress LOL. So relax. But eat natural food, do some phisical stuff ect ect. And sleep. Sleep is like medicine, just better.
I wanna punch my mom and brother right now in the face. They should shut up. I mean why make panic. It´s unhealthy. Things go into your mind and become reality. What you say is what becomes the world around us. Like warnings go into your subconscious and conscious. I actually wanna elbow them. Especially my brother. Drove me crazy. When our friend died. RIP to everyone who died.