Well thank you and thanks for checking in.
How to put this....
It has been a LONG LONG time since I have had the privilege of abusing pain meds.
And i am too old to be buying street drugs.
Ive been on opiod pain meds for about 20 years, and done so without problems with the sole exception being an instince where i was robbed by someone I thought was a friend. My tolerance is so high I literally woild have to intentionally attempt to kill myself in order to reach a dose sufficient to harm me. I dont plan to do so. The meds dont get me high and havent so much as rolled my eyes back or made me sleepy in 8-10 years, at that time on a pretty heavy dose of fentanyl, methadone and dialaudid.
Only mild concern is if my daughters (they know better) or one of their friends stole a pill. One 40mg oxy I would think would pose a pretty significant risk of lethality to a teenage girl, supposing she was dumb enough to take one. So i will probably have to invest in a safe at some point soon.
I think the scenario which people get tripped up with is a short term injury or surgery giving them access to pain meds and then the pain goes away but the habit remains. Not in the cards for me. This pain is never going to not be with me in this lifetime.