I dont really get you.
You claim "My boss isn't exactly thrilled about my absence, and let's just say my management position isn't looking too secure anymore. I might be trading in my managerial hat for a more... let's say, "entry-level" role."
And your thoughts go to:
"If this was 10 years ago…or heck if I was 10 years younger I swear I would just go find a fight right now, and just grapple the whole time."
You talk about having money issues and not being able to buy your mom a Bday present.
yet spend most of the post talking about your grappling or lack of it.
You are all over the place.
If I had a shitty boss and problem making ends meet, I would focus on fixing that.
Not thinking about my grappling from 10 years ago and what could /should have been.
Grappling is not going to fix your problem.