The other night my instructor gave me my fourth stripe on my white belt. Everyone says my blue belt is coming soon. I suspect it will be when his teacher comes up from Brazil in a few months. That's how it was done last time. The thing is, I don't feel like a blue belt. I really need to step it up if I'm going to wear that thing around and not feel like a phony. I'm really inconsistant. I'll tap out one of the blue belts in the class with some crazy move, but then I'll get tapped by a guy who's been training like half the time as me. I had originally trained for like 7months or so, but then I was deployed with the Marine Corps for 6 month. Since then I've only been back and training for like a month and a half. Missing so much time training I have an awful lot of "ring rust". It's like, who am I to argue with this black belt if he promotes me, but at the same time, I'll feel pretty awkward and fake if I pick up my blue belt anytime soon.