How often did you train while on the drug? If you did it often, did you notice an improvement in your tolerance or anything?
daily. there's really no getting over being that amped up all the time. i initially attributed a lot of the fatigue to the klonopin, but once i weaned off of that i still had the same problems that everybody's been mentioning.
i was constantly thirsty, constantly sweating, and like i said, my RHR was 50% above normal. that really freaked me out. i kind of felt like my body was burning fuel throughout the whole day, instead of when i needed it.
the other thing i noticed was that i couldn't control my hyper-focus. it was like vyvanse just left the switch in the 'on' button. it was great for class, up to a point, but like i said, i almost paid too much attention to everything.
i've read a few columns and papers that postulate ADHD is simply remnants of our paleolithic humanity. that's why sit-down-and-shut-up doesn't work. that's why the incidence is so high among men. we're not wired to hang out on our asses and stare at screens or listen to people babble. we're supposed to be out foraging and fucking and fighting and being men, damn it.
think about all the bullshit we dealt with in school for not conforming. not saying 'baaa'. we were taught to accept authority, sit still, and stare at things two feet in front of our faces for eight hours a day. that if we didn't accept that, we were somehow wrong, or 'naughty'. fuck that. the world is far too big, and life is far too short to spend sitting on your ass wondering what's out there. it might not conform with 'normal' society, but fuck normal society. fuck traveling from box-to-box just to get fat and buy more boxes to put in my boxes. that's precisely why i don't have a desk job. i get accused of squandering my 'gift' of intelligence because i'm not sitting at a lab bench curing cancer or sitting behind a computer moving money around. fuck those people. i've been doing construction for the last year, and i've never been happier. i need to move. i need to sweat. i need change. i need excitement. i don't see the point in using my intellect to increase someone's profit margins.
sorry to get excited. i guess what i'm trying to say is that you don't
need to medicate yourself when there's nothing wrong with you. ask yourself if what you're doing is making you happy. ask yourself if you're sure. if you have to medicate yourself just to appease people and 'fit in', why bother?
