"I have been reading the stories on this site for a year, and finally am mustering the courage to tell me story. It will take a few posts, so I will start at the beginning. I am 49, Caucasian, and met my now 45 year old wife, from Japan when I was 22 and she was 18. She has now been cuckolding me for 30 years, and I LOVE it, but have never told anyone anything about it.
I first met Yumi, the woman who would become my wife, when I moved to Japan to teach English at age 22. She was an adorably petite Japanese woman (girl?), age 18, and I fell head over heels. I would be be her first boyfriend and first sexual partner. She had never even kissed anyone else.
After about a year, we were already talking about marriage. During one such conversation, I said how romantic it is that would be married, and that I was the only man she ever had. She kind of smirked, and remarked how that is nice for me, but maybe not for her. I was a little surprised, but let it go with no reply, but inside of me, that was when I first realized that she would eventually be with other men, and there was probably nothing I could do about it.
It was probably about a year later, I remember she was 20 at the time, when after a few glasses of wine, I was giving her oral, and she was on top, riding my face, something she normally did not do. As I was tonguing her clit to no avail, she suddenly thrust her self forward a little bit and started masturbating her own clit, somewhat oblivious to the fact that her asshole was now on top of my mouth, and my nose in her vagina. She started calling out another man's name, “Tim! Tim”, just a few times. For some reason, as she was doing this I got really hard, knowing that she was masturbating to some other guy that I did not know. I started, for the first time ever, licking her asshole.
So there I was, the women that I wanted to marry was sitting on my face, masturbating to another man. My tongue was in her ass, and for some reason that I did not yet understand, hard as a rock, and jerking myself off. Once she came, I let myself cum, and she slowly snuggled up next to me.
After a few minutes passed, I found the courage to ask, “So who's Tim”?
She appeared genuinely shocked, and asked me how I knew about Tim. I told her that she was saying his name. She admitted that she was thinking about this guy Tim, but had not realized she said his name out loud. She told me the story. She was out with one of her friends in Roppongi, a part of Tokyo known as a drinking area for non-Japanese, and a somewhat common place for Japanese women interested in foreign men to go. They met these two Navy guys. She ended up in a hotel with Tim, but she claims that he was such a gentleman and refused to fuck her because she was drunk.
She told me that she wanted to take him for a weekend trip and have sex with him, and wanted to see if it was okay with me. I told that OF COURSE it was not okay with me. (I knew I was lying!) She looked sad, and asked me sadly, “Does that mean you are breaking up with me? I thought you love me!”
I told her that I am not breaking up with her, but she can't have sex with him. She said, “Well I am GOING to have sex with him. Are you breaking up with me, or do you love me?” She started to cry.
I was floored, but also had developed an erection again. This was the moment that I became a cuck. I told her that it was okay, that yes, I loved her, and that I would forgive her for anything. She could have sex with Tim, I just asked her to always tell me about it. I asked her permission to go down on her again. I crawled between her legs, and told her how much I loved her. I think I started crying, and apologizing that I was not man enough for her, telling her that it is my fault that she has to fuck other men.
She called me “Lou-chan” for the first time while I was giving her permission to fuck Tim. “Chan” is a diminutive suffix, usually used only for girls, and little boys. I called her “Yumi-sama”, which in Japanese is like “princess” or “goddess”. As I was going down on her, she mentioned that Tim is only on a military salary, and that she doesn't make so much money either. I understood what she was asking, and with my face between her thighs, I came on the sheets as I told her, “It's okay, Yumi-sama. I will give you the money to take Tim away next weekend so he can fuck you.”
That was 29 years ago, and she has cuckolded me ever since.
More later, if anyone is interested."