(Thats a BS title BTW, I just wanted to get people to actually take note of my thread, and give some input and maybe throw some of your own vids on here for other people to look at.) On Sunday I competed in my 2nd Submission Wrestling tournament. The results where definalty not up to my expectations though. I felt so horrid when I got on the mat. I am probably 70% wrestler and 30% Judoka, but both of those areas where lacking in a lot during this tournament. I didn't feel strong at all when I entered a clinch. My takedowns usually feel unstopable when I get a double elbow bind, and shot in for a double leg takedown, but I felt so unconfident and weak, that when I did attepmt to try it and couldn't generate enough explosive power to finish it. My throws where no where to even be seen. I have loved every minute of learning and crafting my Judo throws, and have gotten them to convert to no-gi very nicely, but I just couldn't get anything going at this tournament. I competed in the intermidate divison and got 2nd place out of 2 people, which is just hurtful to me. Although no one was scoring any points during the period, I felt the other guy would have won if the fight would have went to a decision. I just felt so dominated, even though I know I could have beaten this guy (and everyone else at this tournament!). The match ended up going into overtime, and I was winning the overtime until I gave my back and got RNC. I was even unconcious for a quick second... Here goes the match for you to witness yourself: (I am the black guy) First Period: http://s39.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=19S95LB6TVFA70F33E9PHUIWTQ Overtime: http://s42.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=16IP9MUPKANJD0WR7NRUZIRMPB Oh! and although I hate excuses...one reason why my stances where so poor was due to those wrestling shoes. I haad just bought them and put them on the first time for that match, and they where stiff as ever. My footing felt horrible >_< (Got to work some sweat in those shoes before I sport them at tournaments!) I had 2 other matches in the beginners divison also (I am making a transition between beginner and intermidate,this was my first try at intermidate, and I wanted to get as many matches in as possible, hence why I entered both divisions.) Funny thing is I almost got my tail chocked out again in my first beginners match (they ran intermidate matches first). The guy caught me with a triangle choke, and I promise you I saw my life flashing before my eyes. I could feel myself passing out, but I kept on telling myself not to tap, so I didn't, and ended up tapping him out with an ankle lock. Here goes that match to view: First Period: http://s50.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1WD72DQZ88YYE2LHXWMCPBH4HP My last match, was probably my best. I still felt like a complete slob though, and knew right then and there that my slump from wrestling season was caring over. Another thing that sucked, was although this was my best match, for some odd reason my digi cam and camcorder didn't get the macth on vid, although we had both the stupid devices up and running! GAH! The match went to the ground qucik (I cant even remeber how we got there) and I tried putting on a double wrist lock, then switched it to an armbar, but the guy had pretty good postioning and got out of it, so I rolled to his legs and got him in a loose knee bar, then transitioned to an achilies tendon lock, which failed so I moved on to a ankle lock but gave my back in the process...and WHAM! I got hit with another RNC, and tapped. I dont know, I just dont feel good about myself at all. Maybe it was a lack of preparation and lack of any kind of mental control. All I know is I dont ever want to lose again. My goals are exteremly high right now, and will only increase in 2006, and I have to make some changes, and I have to make them ASAP. This week I an starting eveyrhting over from scratch. I am changing up my weightlifting routine, my carido workout, the way I listen during class, the way I treat drilling and live grappling, my diet, everything! I am posting this just so I can have something to look at later in the year to remind me where I need to be, if I go off stray mentally. 2006 is going to be mad fun. Cheers.