R.I.P. YOLOGOGOPLATA

RIP

Great poster
Strong username game
Probably an above-average good person
 
Killuminati0947 said:
RIP BEN!!

Honestly, I’ve struggled with a big Oxy addiction for over 3 years. 2020 I’ve been doing better except for one relapse during lockdown. I had been clean for 5 months before due to my own near death experience. So I didn’t have a detox that would pressure me to use again. Most people don’t understand how horrible addiction to opiates really is. It’s kinda easy to hide it and function as long as you stay high. It turns into a huge secret that you cant admit and no one knows you need help until rock bottom and your tolerance out grows your income. You have to work to use and use so you can work, your body starts depending on it as much as food to survive so you’re trapped in a exhausting life ruining cycle.

When I OD’d It happened 15 minutes after I used and I didn’t wake up in ambulance until they gave me enough narcan 30 minutes later with no idea where I was and why. It literally felt like I was cooking then I blinked and instantly was in ambulance hooked up to IVs completely confused bout everything. It was so scary cause it felt like 2 seconds with no pain at all and if my little boy wasn’t there to get help I would have died and not even realized it. He would have to deal with all the pain while I left and felt nothing, that thought really fucked me up. I stopped cold turkey and since my tolerance was so high the withdrawal lasted a whole month and I didn’t sleep at ALL for 1st 12 days it was mentally and physically the worst thing I ever experienced. I can’t even explain the hell I was in during that.

My heart goes out Ben and all his family and friends. Its one of most tragic things to hear for everyone involved. It’s not people that are bad or worthless that are losing their life it’s mostly really great people like Ben. That’s the most heartbreaking and eye opening thing.

I’m sorry for your loss TS. Sounds like MMA lost a great fan. I appreciate you finding another way for Ben to be remembered through a sport he loved on this platform and also using this to raise awareness through his story. This is first time I’ve told my story to anyone outside of doctor and closest family and friends that helps more than you know. Ben’s story reminded me so much of myself being an athlete most of life and going through same things. People will always judge addicts by there past so I can’t talk about it openly without being judged or losing a job opportunity so the anonymity of Sherdog and your thread remembering Ben inspired me to get it off my chest to people that love MMA as much as me.THANKS TS AND RIP BEN
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It takes a lot of strength to post something like this about yourself, even online.

Keep your head up, Sherbro
 
The Legendary Scarface said:
RIP @YOLOGOGOPLATA

This morning I texted him, and earlier this afternoon I received a text from his mother, from his phone, informing me of the tragic news.

Ben was an amazing dude. He was so thoughtful and caring and always had your best interest at heart. He was also a sports encyclopedia - from mma, to basketball and everything in between, he knew stats, dates, accomplishments and could always knock your head off in a debate.

He was actually the only person I've ever made friends with on the internet(which is something I never have done before or even considered doing). I met him on Sherdog (older account) about a year and a half ago and eventually we exchanged numbers and would talk or text. We planned to meet up in person to watch a card at some point as we were about 3 hours away but it never worked out. We talked about sports most of the time but we also talked about life. Ben had a lot of things going for him, he was very athletic (A - Level son) , charismatic, and very intelligent. He was also the kindest dude man, he was so sensible and had a beautiful self awareness to him and always made sure you were comfortable and happy when speaking with you. He also unfortunately had some demons he struggled with for years . Ben struggled with depression and drug use for a while. His mother told me he never learned how to fail and he was so accustomed to being perfect (sports, studies, etc) that once he started to make mistakes and not achieve the goals he strived for, it was a foreign experience for him and that eventually led him to drug use. Last year, when i was going through some things myself, he was one of the first people to call and talk to me like a brother to help even though we didnt even know each other that well. If any of you on here are struggling with any mental health issues or drug abuse please seek help. You can overcome it.

The last time I spoke to him was the day Kobe passed. I remember informing him of Kobe's death and he immediately called me in total shock. This impacted him more then I initially thought and I haven't texted him since then until this morning . What especially hurts to think about is if i should of texted him after Kobe's death instead of waiting an entire week. I had this gut feeling that it affected him a lot and that maybe i should hit him up but i just decided to wait a bit. And right before i woke up earlier I had a dream that I was looking for a missing person. You can't run from destiny. He passed from an overdose on Monday, January 27th 2020.

My condolences go to his family and friends.

This is a link to his obituary if you'd like to read more about him:
https://www.thomasmcafee.com/obituary/Ben-Spark

Please be respectful.
RIP Ben Spark
1990 - 2020
@YOLOGOGOPLATA
Love you bro
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Young I lived in Greenville for couple years beautiful place
 
Rip young man. I really feel for his family. Nothing worse than a parent outliving their children.
 
The longer 2020 goes on, the more obvious it is that he picked a great time to leave this world. I'm actually envious of him now. Seriously. His soul is hanging out in the non-physical world and is just fine while humanity as we know it is on the verge of ending.
 
Mask Of Winters said:
The longer 2020 goes on, the more obvious it is that he picked a great time to leave this world. I'm actually envious of him now. Seriously. His soul is hanging out in the non-physical world and is just fine while humanity as we know it is on the verge of ending.
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Are you okay, bud? Sounds like tough times and I’m just reading between the lines.
 
RIP Ben Spark.

On the obituary page, it states his grandmother was Muriel Spark. Does anyone know if this is the same famous 20th century novelist Muriel Spark who wrote The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie?
 
Rip brotha i recognized the name back when i was sherdog more often 2 years ago. Yolo and FrankieNYC are big losses. much respect YOLO and Frankie. Rest in Power
 
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