Lovely message TS and rest in peace man.
Mental illness is an absolute bitch, I don't claim to compare my issues at all, just this last year my mental health suddenly took a down turn, terrible anxiety, heart palpitation and panic attacks, I went from someone who's always took everything thrown at me to my body one day deciding it won't take anymore. I've suffered OCD since I was young and never realised, I just thought it was normal, once my body started kicking my arse back for over thinking negatively I got the shock of my life.
I think what I'm trying to say is, I never took poor mental health as a serious thing and always believed people were weak minded, then I found out the hard way that's not it at all.
Rest in peace man <3