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Two pounds of flesh.
I mean - two pounds - british pounds. Currency.
It's a complex situation.
Firstly - it was a female junkie, who was probably about half my size, and half my weight.
I'm talking - a little person.
Next was, she caught me coming out of a massage parlor - where I was trying to coax the hot masseuse to perform extra's.
It was a high end massage parlor - strictly professional - but I could never have forgiven myself if I didn't at least take a shot.
Needless to say, my shot was unsuccessful.
So I'm coming out and, this sunken eyed skeleton of a woman, wearing a woolly hat, pounces me - whips up her sleeves, to show where she'd cut her arms (self harming), as well as the hospital bracelet; said she'd just got out - I'm assuming from a laughing academy hospital.
I was going to tell her, "fuck no!!" - anticipating her question.
But - she stared into my eyes.
Deep in the eyes.
And begged, pleaded.
I knew she was saving for junk but - the tears were there.
Staring in her eyes - I could feel her pain.
I honestly wanted to hug her, just there; just fucking hug her - maybe cry with her - not more than that, for fear of catching some junkie related infection but - you get the idea.
That being said, being female - I didn't want to give her the impression I was trying to get her to turn a trick in exchange for junk money.
So instead, I pulled out my wallet - rather stupidly - without turning my back; so she got a birdseye view of the wad of freshly cash-machine dispensed tens.
I pull out two pounds from the coin pocket, and thrust it into her frail palm.
She begged me for one of the crisp, cool tens.
I said, "fuck you - no" - then placed my palm on her slendy back and pushed her along.
There's nothing sexual here - trust me - but, even now, I wish I could have just hugged her, held her - somehow transferred healing energy into her body, make her forget her pain, give her the strength to turn her life around - lift her out of the blackhole of opioid addiction.
Fucking breaks my heart.
Anyways - I went and found another massage parlor, where I successfully persuaded the masseuse to get nasty - which cost me 30 pounds; so I guess the two pounds wasn't a big thing.
I don't really ever give money to junkie's but - she just got me lost in the moment.
Fucking s thinking opioid abuse is somehow a cool lifestyle - man I'd fucking stretch their assholes like mandingo.
It's that sort of twisted subculture that incites this shit - certain naive fools that know no better, get lost in the trend.
I'd fucking eat the perpetuators assholes alive!!
I mean - two pounds - british pounds. Currency.
It's a complex situation.
Firstly - it was a female junkie, who was probably about half my size, and half my weight.
I'm talking - a little person.
Next was, she caught me coming out of a massage parlor - where I was trying to coax the hot masseuse to perform extra's.
It was a high end massage parlor - strictly professional - but I could never have forgiven myself if I didn't at least take a shot.
Needless to say, my shot was unsuccessful.
So I'm coming out and, this sunken eyed skeleton of a woman, wearing a woolly hat, pounces me - whips up her sleeves, to show where she'd cut her arms (self harming), as well as the hospital bracelet; said she'd just got out - I'm assuming from a laughing academy hospital.
I was going to tell her, "fuck no!!" - anticipating her question.
But - she stared into my eyes.
Deep in the eyes.
And begged, pleaded.
I knew she was saving for junk but - the tears were there.
Staring in her eyes - I could feel her pain.
I honestly wanted to hug her, just there; just fucking hug her - maybe cry with her - not more than that, for fear of catching some junkie related infection but - you get the idea.
That being said, being female - I didn't want to give her the impression I was trying to get her to turn a trick in exchange for junk money.
So instead, I pulled out my wallet - rather stupidly - without turning my back; so she got a birdseye view of the wad of freshly cash-machine dispensed tens.
I pull out two pounds from the coin pocket, and thrust it into her frail palm.
She begged me for one of the crisp, cool tens.
I said, "fuck you - no" - then placed my palm on her slendy back and pushed her along.
There's nothing sexual here - trust me - but, even now, I wish I could have just hugged her, held her - somehow transferred healing energy into her body, make her forget her pain, give her the strength to turn her life around - lift her out of the blackhole of opioid addiction.
Fucking breaks my heart.
Anyways - I went and found another massage parlor, where I successfully persuaded the masseuse to get nasty - which cost me 30 pounds; so I guess the two pounds wasn't a big thing.
I don't really ever give money to junkie's but - she just got me lost in the moment.
Fucking s thinking opioid abuse is somehow a cool lifestyle - man I'd fucking stretch their assholes like mandingo.
It's that sort of twisted subculture that incites this shit - certain naive fools that know no better, get lost in the trend.
I'd fucking eat the perpetuators assholes alive!!