All Ronda said is that the thought passed briefly through her mind - she didn't actually rig up a noose for herself. Holly's comments are solid. The best way to deal with adversity is to confront it and get it over with and then move on. Sometimes easier said than done. When I learned that I had a congenital heart defect that would either kill me or require open heart surgery, I felt sorry for myself until I realized that the same day I got that news some other poor motherfucker was told he had AIDS or had a brain tumor. The day that Ronda got decked, there were other people who got permanently crippled in car crashes, learned they had HIV, got sentenced to life in prison, lost a child, etc. etc. That was some bad shit that Ronda had to go through, but there are folks who had to go through much, much worse shit.