Health Do you think about death often?

[Aurelian]

I get chest pains semi-frequently and always think I'm going to die of a heart attack.

In fact, you can bet your bottom dollar that if I ever go missing from sherdog for more than a month, that's what happened to me.

So yeah I think about death a lot.

I feel.

3-4 times this year I've probably hit the weed a little too hard and just lost bodily control and fell over. I don't know if these are like mini-strokes or just being dehydrated or something. Expecting to kill over any day.

Just yesterday I was talking with a friend about what my potential burial costs would be. She tells me all the time "don't die", or "are you dying"?

 

[Intermission]

I would be incredibly angry if I die now because I didn't do all the stupid shit, have kids, get married.

I want the full experience. You have one life...Why not make the most of it?

Should have been a fighter and kicked some ass too. Can't say why but I kinda know where to put my body...

 

[stalehotdog]

Yes. Especially so when I’m having sex. The sweet release of death.

 

[tank666]

Now Im 53 and on the back 9 I do yes.

 

[tank666]

It's weird to me knowing people younger than me who are no longer with us. A guy I was friends with in Japan who killed himself. Also an ex-girlfriend of mine who died from cancer. Random people from school.

 

[TheNinja]

Nope.

 

[Contempt]

I get chest pains semi-frequently and always think I'm going to die of a heart attack.

In fact, you can bet your bottom dollar that if I ever go missing from sherdog for more than a month, that's what happened to me.

So yeah I think about death a lot.

Can I have your stuff?

...no but seriously, go to a doctor, that's not shit you want to mess around with. You really should not be having regular chest pain unless something is quite badly wrong.

 

[syct23]

Now Im 53 and on the back 9 I do yes.

You’re only on the first par three, that’s why it feels so short..

There’s time

 

[Fedorgasm]

Can I have your stuff?

...no but seriously, go to a doctor, that's not shit you want to mess around with. You really should not be having regular chest pain unless something is quite badly wrong.

I've gone 3 times over the years, they do an EKG and then tell me I'm fine.

I have heard about some kind of calcium test for the heart that's supposed to predict heart attacks very accurately, but insurance doesn't cover it. I've been meaning to research how much it costs though. I might just pay out of pocket if it's not too bad.

The joys of the American healthcare system...

 

[fingercuffs]

Yes. A lot.
We don't have friends or family here so I worry if I cark it husband will be completely isolated and on his own. I'll be dead so it won't affect me.
My last ultrasound a couple of weeks ago was clear but it's a constant mental battle from all of us even though I've been clear 6 years.

 

[Contempt]

Yes. Especially so when I’m having sex. The sweet release of death.

 

[Contempt]

I've gone 3 times over the years, they do an EKG and then tell me I'm fine.

I have heard about some kind of calcium test for the heart that's supposed to predict heart attacks very accurately, but insurance doesn't cover it. I've been meaning to research how much it costs though. I might just pay out of pocket if it's not too bad.

The joys of the American healthcare system...

Sounds like it would be worth it just for peace of mind alone?

Wat if you miss something that's preventable until it's too late?

 

[Contempt]

Yes. A lot.
We don't have friends or family here so I worry if I cark it husband will be completely isolated and on his own. I'll be dead so it won't affect me.
My last ultrasound a couple of weeks ago was clear but it's a constant mental battle from all of us even though I've been clear 6 years.

He won't be all alone... he will have two kitties.

 

[fingercuffs]

He won't be all alone... he will have two kitties.

I know. He says he'll be fine and he really enjoys his own company but everyone needs someone at some points. I mean if I pop my clogs I don't expect even people to drive down, drive across and fly to even support him at my funeral we're so remote so that scares me him having to do that alone.

 

[Contempt]

I know. He says he'll be fine and he really enjoys his own company but everyone needs someone at some points. I mean if I pop my clogs I don't expect even people to drive down, drive across and fly to even support him at my funeral we're so remote so that scares me him having to do that alone.

I wouldn't be worried, men really are different to women in that respect. We are perfectly fine being alone.

I'm sure he'll be fine.

 

[Cole train]

Every day that i have to go to work

 

[fingercuffs]

I wouldn't be worried, men really are different to women in that respect. We are perfectly fine being alone.

I'm sure he'll be fine.

I haven't seen him cry too often but when I was diagnosed and I was trying to shrug it off because of what was happening with my mum he cried and begged me to have all treatment so I know it would affect him.

Also a massive possibility that I got everything I wanted. I got to buy the house I adore with a new adventure in the desert, got my perfect husband with me, got our kitties, and started albeit small, but a business, that I'm just waiting for it all to go pear shaped.

 

[Contempt]

I haven't seen him cry too often but when I was diagnosed and I was trying to shrug it off because of what was happening with my mum he cried and begged me to have all treatment so I know it would affect him.

Also a massive possibility that I got everything I wanted. I got to buy the house I adore with a new adventure in the desert, got my perfect husband with me, got our kitties, and started albeit small, but a business, that I'm just waiting for it all to go pear shaped.

Of course it would affect him, you've been together for 20 years haven't you? Apart from being sad at the loss, I imagine he'd be OK.

I heard someone state something that stuck with me many years ago: "The only thing that most people use their imagination for in adulthood is sitting there, thinking about all the stuff that could go wrong." It's not far from the mark... gotta live life as it is and appreciate the good stuff while you have it, as who knows how long it will last?

 

[Versez]

Only the death of my enemies.

I would kill @Versez with teh jab and maybe an uppercut if he ever comes to Argentina.

I’m still living in your head rent free !

 

[fingercuffs]

Of course it would affect him, you've been together for 20 years haven't you? Apart from being sad at the loss, I imagine he'd be OK.

I heard someone state something that stuck with me many years ago: "The only thing that most people use their imagination for in adulthood is sitting there, thinking about all the stuff that could go wrong." It's not far from the mark... gotta live life as it is and appreciate the good stuff while you have it, as who knows how long it will last?

Exactly why I think it's on my mind, that everything I ever wanted for us might be swept away for him being I have this stupid PALB2 gene which could fuck everything up.
I apologise, I'm maudlin. I think my mum going through it all when I was going through it has really fucked my head up mortality wise. I screamed my head off on a ride in Santa Cruz and could barely walk after getting off it when I used to adore rollercoasters, and he pretty much worked out that my brain changed,