I miss the underground nature of the beginning. (started in 96) I remember thinking how it would one day be popular. Then, in the dark days of the UFC 99-03, I thought it was a passing fad. When it finally went main stream I was happy. Then, I was annoyed at the "Tap Out" generation. Then, I liked the new IBJJF phase of my training. Then, I was bored by that. Then, I liked the fact that I could get six pack abs and hot chicks in my mid forties by training jiu jitsu. Then, I got bored of that as well.
I like the gentle playfulness now. I can do this into my old age at this pace. I still tussle with the young studs and go hard regularly. I don't worry about street fighting or MMA anymore. I just want to have fun.
I used to size up everybody I met. "I'd take that guy down. I'll kick that guy in the nuts. I'll have to rag doll that guy. " I used to think I was a tough guy and I was pretty tough. Luckily, jiu jitsu taught me that I am not that tough.
Jiu jitsu, thanks for the humility.