Only respect
He's a man that had super rough life, and gone through it remaining an honest hard worker(even too much), reality is both my parents has been a light in my shit neighborhood
Growing up i learned to swim into shit streets because these kids were all my childhood friends, but in life i had the advantage to have a good family while most of my friends were the ones with alcoholic dad who beat up their mom... does'nt matter how much bullshit i did with them and how fun has been, i had at home example of what was "normal", while they did'nt and lot of them end up become their dad or worse
Dad used to be large strong butcher with rugby hobby and short temper who could put fear in other adult men and some of them good amount of head trauma too (but i REALLY doubt he ever beated up a not-asshole, actually ever had some sort of "reverence" for well-mannered people i think to have inherited), but never in my life gave me the slightest hint he would even think to hurt me
If there was to deliver educational violence my small mom would go mad chihuahua and throw teh slap or a mestolo strike, wich was'nt feared much but still something had to be done lol
One sad irony is 99% my father believe i consider him dumb loser, when on reality lot i did in my life was because i had him as model of how a real man should be... like i trained lot years martial arts/fight sports and yet i was never a bully(not even when pushed by friends to join the fun), my basic idea ever was be good with people but have the tools to hurt assholes who may mistake be good with be target
Then we are very very different and we took very different approaches to life, but still almost all traits i got from him are in the list of good ones and if i think at really bad ones feels like none come from him
In short not only i respect him but i consider him better man than myself, if i achieved more than him with much less effort is because world is shit place and because thanks to him i had much easier start at life than he did