Thanks.Sorry for your loss mate.
Sorry to hear you’re going through a rough patch. Good on you for being the bigger man and walking away. No fight is worth the aggravation and potential consequences.Thanks.
I'm still processing it. It's been a couple of weeks but I'm still pretty messed up. I'm lucky to have a very understanding, supportive, and forgiving spouse or it would likely be pretty bad for ol' Andy at the moment.
The other day I "got into it" with someone at a pool hall. Buddy threatened me with violence and then turned his back on me. I'm not a violent person by nature but it felt at the time like the only reason I didn't split his head open from behind was the thought of going to jail and the effect the whole thing would have on my wife.
And now there is a deep layer of frustration seething inside me for not having done anything about it. I keep going back and forth over whether I can handle the stress of going through with a police complaint just to get some sort of closure/satisfaction; there might be security camera video so that would make it a lot easier to handle. What it won't do is ease the abiding anger I will carry at myself for not ass-raping the guy with his own cue stick right then and there. But really it's just another situation in my life I can only react to and not actually do anything about.
That's what I get for acting responsibly and not like the raging wingnut that is inside my head yelling at me to do something--anything--to ease this feeling of being helpless against the growing pile of crazy shit that is happening in my life right now.* I am still hoping to get a heavy bag to hang in my barn when I can get the spare cash together. It's bound to help, right?
*I say that because there's a lot more than just these two things that have been happening; I won't bore y'all with them here though. You'll just have to take my word that it seems like every major life event that is normally sprinkled through a person's life has been happening to me all in a short time.
Especially not that one. I think a person can't be blamed for feeling there's only one kind of justice that needs to be served in a situation like that but would the police, the courts, and my wife agree? Unlikely. And just feeling like that isn't enough on its own, that's for sure but I am having a very hard time letting it go.Sorry to hear you’re going through a rough patch. Good on you for being the bigger man and walking away. No fight is worth the aggravation and potential consequences.
Holding onto a resentment over it ultimately only hurts you. It is in your own personal best interest to let it go (and I mean truly). Resentment is a ugly parasitic creature that slowly sucks away at the person that holds it. Forgive and eventually forget my friend. Sorry for your loss, you are going through some things sending love and prayers.Especially not that one. I think a person can't be blamed for feeling there's only one kind of justice that needs to be served in a situation like that but would the police, the courts, and my wife agree? Unlikely. And just feeling like that isn't enough on its own, that's for sure but I am having a very hard time letting it go.
I decline to go into detail but sadly, I don't feel that way; in fact I feel like I let him down terribly. But that might have no basis in reality. It is my sincerest wish that time proves you to be true.
Holding on to it just adds bitterness to your life. Learning to let go has huge benefits, trust me.Especially not that one. I think a person can't be blamed for feeling there's only one kind of justice that needs to be served in a situation like that but would the police, the courts, and my wife agree? Unlikely. And just feeling like that isn't enough on its own, that's for sure but I am having a very hard time letting it go.
Holding onto a resentment over it ultimately only hurts you. It is in your own personal best interest to let it go (and I mean truly). Resentment is a ugly parasitic creature that slowly sucks away at the person that holds it. Forgive and eventually forget my friend. Sorry for your loss, you are going through some things sending love and prayers.
Well, I hope y'all understand I pointed out that I was having a hard time letting it go because I know the best thing to do is let it goHolding on to it just adds bitterness to your life. Learning to let go has huge benefits, trust me.