You just loooooove to make things difficult for yourself don't you? nope
Eh? Sounds like you are looking for size to me. Anyway, what his pictures are supposed to tell you are not what makes you just big, but what makes you strong as fuck. The size is a secondary effect.
I have no idea in hell what that means? How is it that you are pushing more than 3xBW (what exercise)? And what do you mean you can only "free weight lift 45"?
idk, i can lp a lot. not dw, i can bench 120
You're American so I assume we're talking about lbs. here. Surely you can lift more than that? 45lbs is like trying to open a heavy car door or something like that. I suspect you're talking about some other lift than what we'd assume (deadlift).