My crush/first girlfriend became a lawyer. Suits her cause she was always a conniving manipulative succubus. I think she’s dating or married to some shorter bald guy. His problem now. Boy was I a dumbass when I was younger… people told me she was whorish and I still got with her… I took her virginity but she supposedly got finger banged by some guy a year or two before I got with her and I didn’t believe it. After we broke up .. like two years later our basketball high school star told me to stay away from her… I can only guess that he banged her or did some shit with her and I don’t blame him not like we were close friends or anything. He was a really cool guy tho and got me onto the HS basketball team and travel team after I shut him down on defense in a one on one after school (came close at least kid was unstoppable and I’m a defensive maestro). Hope he smashed and he’s living a good life. Kinda feel sorry for her too in a way.. it is what it is.
I wasn’t an ugly guy, actually a lot of girls had crushes on me in HS, I was just a bit more nerdier than the prototypical jock and liked to play video games and think more … dad was never in my life to put me into sports or give me any type of advice so I believed all girls were angels and deserved the upmost respect due to conditioning by my single mother. I still went on to bang over 100 girls ( do not do this ) to try to prove my worth… but it’s just a trap. Turns into an addiction
looking back at it now, I wouldn’t associate or become friends with any of those people now… I graduated with my Comp sci degree and it’s hard for me to connect or understand individuals who live a more primal, non deep thinking life. It’s kind of true… hs jocks end up being losers or they end up becoming rich via business… but most times they never become engineers or deep thinkers and their lives stagnant as a result of it.
I’m just a different person now. Looking back on it I was pissed, but now I’m happy I went through all that. Made every mistake and I’m still alive.
