1at of guys I love this forum I read it often and dont post but learn a lot from everyone especially the FAQ'S. Sorry if this post is long btw So let me try to make a long story short Im a big MMA fan and in the past have trained in different disciplines just for fun, stay in shape type of thing. Bout 2 yrs ago life got a little messed up had a very bad car accident that required a bunch of orthopedic surgeries shoulder, knee, elbow, etc. Normally I am bout 5'1-5"2 bout 105lbs well between all the surgeries obvi So now Im trying to recover from this last insane knee surgery I just had and the problem is every time I have surgery betwen the stress of surgery and the drugs ya take I alwalys lose weight.. So my physical therapist and athletic trainers have been awesome pushing me even though its only 2 weeks since my surgery but Im way to thin I havent stepped on the scale but even though I have never been heavy I would say I am probably only like 90lbs now. The physical therapist who is great I see a lot of NY based team/athletes trainin there as well told me he wants me to drink protein shakes he said myoplex. Honestly im overwhelmed by the whole thing. I want to get back into training again but thats a while off, Im limited in my cardio becuase my shoulders bad need that fixed next and my knee so cant even do pool work. I want my trainer to kick my ass but even he feels Im to thin to do stuff. My diet isnt perfect it could be better but I Im on all these stupid proescriptions for post-surgery as well which sorta make you queezy and or loose your appetitite. I def wanna gain some weight obviously muscle but not sure the right way and how far to take it as I dont want to become too "big or thick". I dont wanna look like an Olsen twin but I dont want to be heavy either. No I dont have an eating disorder my folks were trying to get me to eat ice cream and junk like that but I thought thats prob the worst thing I can do. Im trying to eat as much as I can but its tough as I ave like zero appetite. For example today I ate: AM: few scrambeled eggs (with some ketchup - thats my one vice), banana Grilled chicken cutlet, small salad and most of a green pepper, Dinner I had a small steak filet and carrots and broccoli. I also snacked the day on apples, pineapple. I am gonna try to eat some almonds tonight I just dont know how I cant gain weight without it being fat since Im limited in my workouts for a while. I am guesing ahealthy weight for me would be round 100-105 Im not even sure bout that. I have read the FAQ's but wanna have the strength and such not be too weak to get thru ths workouts. Sorry for the longest post ever and al the bad spellig/typing thanks in advance So whats a gal too do? Esp bout the protein shakes and all?