From a certain angle...I could argue that as a child of divorce, I have been scared of being in love, period. Not to say I've never been in relationships, but my trust isn't earned easily - and it can be lost very quickly.
Now, I think what's happening is that I'm trying to figure out where I fit in to the system, and I don't think I do. Or rather, that conclusion is what I'm afraid of more than simply "loving again." Like...I cannot find the middle ground. For instance: once you get out of high school, the world opens up to you. You have to work unless you come from money, but there is nothing dictating to you what job you must do. You can go to school and become a physicist, be a cop, work construction, whatever. Up to you - you decide the specifics of what works for you.
With relationships though: for most people, regardless of their unique personality types or interests, it's the same exact system and progression. Date -> cohabitate -> marriage -> children. Why does everyone have to fit in to that? Maybe I'm looking in the wrong places, but it seems like it's either that, be alone, or have some werido polyamorous situation. (Don't get me started on one night stands. Not interested, it just isn't "me".) There's nobody who wants to just "be" without getting the church or state involved? It's difficult to find.
