I have few memories that are a decade old. I have a shitty tendency of going back to them and trying to recreate the scenario in a different way to make myself more heroic or victorious. This past year I been meditating alot and I see how much these past thoughts are diminishing the effect of meditation. I checked to see if this is normal and I guess it is in some ways. Sorry for the rant, the whole thing is because of remembering a really hot blonde chick at yoga a decade ago and was super friendly with me. I just get upset that it was a missed opportunity even though I don't know her name. Like I have such a small interaction with her while she has left the greatest impression in my memory than chicks I was infatuated with in highschool who I chased and had moments with but the chick I barely knew somehow ended up leaving a powerful impression in my memory. Edit: forgot to mention what helps is when I visualize martial arts and boxing techniques. Puts me in a productive mindset.