So, long story, I used to train like crazy. I had a log that I kept and I trained as many hours as a part time job. I had a boxing gym/coach, a BJJ gym, a regular gym for conditioning, a kickboxing gym, and I used them all. I competed, I was in great shape and I was obsessed with training and I think they were the happiest years of my life. At one point I was training for my first MMA bout (I had done boxing, BJJ tourneys, muay thai, and kickboxing, and sparred MMA like crazy with ammys and pros). About 2-3 weeks from the fight (I was around peaking time) I developed some sort of skin infection. It was Summer and all of my mosquito bites turned into open sores. At the time I was getting a lot of no gi wrestling one on one with a partner as my wrestling is my weakness. I didn't think anything of the sores because I figured I just scratched them open somehow, but they became big and nasty and hurt like hell in the heat. None of my training partners had this. I asked everyone I was rubbing on at the time. I thought maybe my immune system was down since I was peaking? I don't know... Anyways, I went the Dr. She looked at it and said it was Impetigo and gave me a heavy dose of antibiotics to take for several days (not sure what kind but she was mumbling to herself about the dose and looked at me and said "I think you can handle it") It didn't work. I took all the meds. I went back and say another stupid Dr. and with great regret of my ignorance at the time (he should have swabbed me and tested me) He decided by looking at me and by the fact that the first meds didn't work that I had MRSA. Long story short, I went on a ridiculous amount of antibiotics. I couldn't work until I was cleared because I work with patients at a hospital. So I was given heavy anitbiotic soap to wash with, cream to put up my nose (to be sure I would pass my swab to return to work, I guess they swab your nose for MRSA) and heavy pills. I became sick for it all and it took weeks. I scratched the fight (of course the promoter still wanted me to fight) I couldn't train, I couldn't even run. I was sick and depressed over it all. So I got rid of the infection (or whatever it was) and it went down hill from there. I slowly but surely dwindled in my training and got fat and depressed. I was lethargic. I was depressed as well, I guess fighting was my therapy and it kept me happy. I always look back and wonder what that infection was. I work in the medical field and I don't know if I got the right diagnosis. This all happened Summer of 2011. Anyways, I have struggled since then to get back to where I was in my game. I haven't even gotten close. I did fight a kickboxing fight Jan 2012 and did very well fight wise, but I still didn't come close to my prior conditioning. I also did NAGA that May. I am always trying to figure out what I need to do at this point. By now I am really truly out of shape. I have gained a lot of weight too. I have way less energy, tired a lot. I really would like to get back into fighting. I have lowered my standards as to not compare myself to what I was back then, I just want to feel good and get back to training/competing. All of my old training partners have advanced far beyond me. I am happy for them, but it's depressing in a way. I am wondering if anyone has had similar experiences and if so, what did you do? What do you guys suggest??? How to start?? A little info about me... I am a single parent of two kids and I work full-time. That alone may be part of why I am exhausted so much, but I was doing the same then as well. I am 31 now. My ex is a fighter as well. We broke up shortly before this whole fiasco and I sometimes wonder if I am avoiding training because of it. I don't know if most of this is mental or physical. I often wonder if that infection is something that is still in me and has gone undetected (I had a lot of blood work since because I never felt right after that) and my issues are my body, or is it mental? Maybe I am just tired because I work so much and have a family to take care of and get burnt out?? Can anyone relate?? Thank you.. sorry it is long!!! Any advise would be great. I'm really trying to make a serious effort to get back into my old passion!!!