So this is half a question and half a frustrated rant. So I am new to martial arts in general, I did some karate when I was a kid but I was a little thing and I don't remember shit, so it really doesn't count. But Muay Thai has always been on the top of my list of "sports I really want to get into". I used to weigh like 305 Lbs and I lost 150 Lbs and now I am in pretty decent shape and I wanted to put it to good use. So I joined a local boxing gym that has a Muay Thai class 3 nights a week. The instructor is a super nice guy and he seems to know his shit and he is very patient with me, but the classes are pretty big (ranging from 10-25 people depending on who all shows up that night). So I only get a few moments of 1-1 instruction every night. Most of the time we are just doing different pad drills or evasion drills etc. I haven't got to the point where I can spar yet, still got a ways to go. During the drills he always comes up with the combo he wants us to practice... its not like it's this set numbered combo like "yea tonight guys were practicing the #13 combo!". He just makes them up on the spot, then demonstrates them to the class with one of the more advanced students... he will demonstrate it usually 3 times before he pairs us off and lets us practice (then he walks around to each pair and gives pointers). Heres the problem though... the combos are always so long damn long it is impossible for me to remember them, he could show me 20 damn times and I still wouldn't remember the order. Its like jab, jab, cross, jab, L hook, R hook, jab, cross, rear round house kick, R straight kick, jab, jab, R upper cut, R uppercut, front round house kick, L straight kick, jab, jab or some ridiculously long and complicated combo like that. And I can NEVER remember it, ever. I fuck it up every single time and 100% of my brain power is going into simply remembering the damn combo, so much so that it is impossible for me to think about improving my form. Oh I am standing flat on my rear foot instead of the ball? Yea forgot about that because I was wondering if it was jab next or a round house kick. Oh I didn't move my shoulder when I threw the cross... thats because the only thing I could think of was whether or not the next move is a hook or an uppercut, so on and so on. Thing is, no one else in the class seems to have this problem. Even people who started after me have already surpassed me with ease. Its gotten to the point where no one wants to pair up with me because it is a waste of their time to practice with me. The instructor has to assign someone to me because otherwise no one would pair up with me, and I can tell they are pissed when he does it but they try to be nice about it. And it doesn't help that I am super shy (I have aspergers and severe social anxiety). I feel like the class dunce. And I am not a dumb person, I am very intelligent, I have a high IQ and a masters degree in computer engineering. But my intelligence is more of slow methodical strategic kind of thinking not a fast on the spot tactical kind of thinking. I feel completely defeated. I want this more than just about anything in my life. I want it so bad I can't get it out of my head. I've got Muay Thai on the brain all the time and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get better. But because of my shit'tacular short term memory I don't know what I can do to improve. I got really upset with myself at the last class because of it, I almost walked off the mats and left the class to go smash the heavy bags for awhile because trying to do the pad drills was practically impossible for me. I've said something to the instructor about it but he just says that I will get it in time and that I will develop muscle memory for it... but to me that just means he doesn't understand the problem. My body not knowing how to move is a different problem entirely, and I do believe that with practice that issue will improve drastically. But it's my inability to actually do the drills in the proper order its making participating in the class impossible and very frustrating. I've tried some memory games (like on lumonosity), but it doesn't seem to help. Any thoughts, opinions, suggestions?