It is approaching nine years since I escaped captivity at Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri and became a free man again. Often, I struggle with understanding the normal human mind and how different I am from that prototype. In the particular case of my horrid Basic Training experience, I often try and seek an understanding of why it seems that the average person just seemed to be OK with the bullshit and did what was asked. In my mind, the experience was deplorable. Young formative people are rounded up from around the country, generally tricked, deceived or misled, for the purpose of being trained to kill without being able to question why. Freewill is completely out the window when you get on base. The leaders in charge are just gigantic egomaniacs, who likely have no true intellectual basis for being given the authority they have. Power is pretty absolute, as commanders have enormous discretion to do whatever they want for discipline. Hell, when the psychiatrist recommended me for discharge, he made it a point to say that my commander ultimately had the final say. It felt like hell to me. I grew up idealistic and thinking shit like this wasn't tolerated. Whatever happened to big egos are bad, taking advantage of people is wrong, power corrupts absolutely, people have freewill, and slavery was abolished? I would not have begrudged a trainee doing absolutely whatever was necessary to escape. He/she was the victim of governmental abuse, afterall. Yet, the reality was your average human mind that was there did what was asked. They may have hated it at first, but they either adapted or accepted that it wasn't worth the trouble of trying to get out. It really bothered me. Why reward this type of deplorable behavior? You are just furthering the existence of a terrible system. I really do not know why I get so worked up over things that I cannot really control or change. However, it just bothers me how the average person seemingly thought and behaved entirely different than I. I still think to myself, as I did on Day 0 when the command was entertaining itself with threats and orders, "How the FUCK is this legal?" Thanks for any insight.